this is proably the saddest thing i've ever read ( Read more... )

um i just wrote a whole entry about a dream i had and sometimes im paranoid it'll get lost so i copy it before i hit update and so i went to hit ctrl c and i must have hit the spacebar too and it erased everything and all that was left was a c. how's that for ironic.

my dad was in my dream again last night. i think we were at a party and we were hugging and i was holding onto him so tight. and we were hugging and dancing, just moving back and forth and in circles. and i wish it wasn't just a dream ( Read more... )

they're talking about myspace on dr. phil. that's weird. and stupid.

i want my life back. i want to be me again. and i want it really bad.

i swear to god someone put a curse on our family. yesterday molly died. yesterday was my sister's bithday. and right now my mom was about to got to the store and came back inside a minute later saying it looked like someone got into her car. the glove box was open and all the stuff from that middle compartment thing was on the seat. although we ( Read more... )

also, i have 3 of my 4 grades in for this semester and my gpa so far for just this semester is 0.9.

HA.

i knew it was going to happen though so it's ok. my stomach hurts.

last night i took my mom to see the radio city christmas spectacular. the ride there was rough because she decided to try and have a serious conversation with me. plus we were in a cab because she didn't want to drive with me on the highway. thanks mom. anyway the show was nice, they dance really well. at the end they have this nativity scene and ( Read more... )

yesterday was my birthday. i am now 21. doesn't feel any different than being 20, then again when does any age feel different than the year before? i went to dinner with my mom and sister, ordered my first drink and didn't even get carded. probably because i was with my mom. anyway, it was good but i couldn't even finish it considering i don't even ( Read more... )

when you're in high school, you think your friends will be your friends forever. well at least your best friends. but you forget that life changes so much when you actually start growing up. and it's almost impossible to keep things the same. and the people you never thought you would lose are the first to go ( Read more... )