I hate  being the bottom of the pole. I hate that there are people who want me to put them and their feelings first, my attention is supposed to be on them above anyone other than my own kids -but when the tables are turned? Oh then it's different, I am ignored, ditched, and shoved on the back burner. My feelings don't matter, they don't give a rat ( Read more... )

For those of you who do not have my myspace account, well first of all you should get with the times and find it! But here's a bit of an update anyway ( Read more... )

For those of you who still read my LJ and do not already know... As of May 17, 2006 I will end my first trimester. Yes the one thing the doctors told me couldn't happen without the use of fertility drugs DID in fact happen, get this? While on birth control!!! The heck?! We've both recently started new jobs, are apartment hunting, and uh.. yeah I ( Read more... )

I sort of lost my job with Jen, mainly because she's biopolar and afraid I was going to leave her. Though that much is true I was going to. I will likely soon have a job with another couple, the mother of which is an Asthma doctor! Woohoo! She is willing to give me free exams and help with my medications so that I am in top working conditions to ( Read more... )

All right not that any of you read my LJ anymore for whatever your reason. I still feel the need to point out the fact that I am slowly being converted into a nerd! WTF?!?!?! Nah actually it's pretty cool, I've gone absolutely video game nuts, well video/computer.. My collection is ever growing thanks to the man responsible for getting me hooked ( Read more... )

You know it's about this point in a relationship that I start to evaluate things (if I don't do it six months into it).. But this one doesn't need it. The only evaluation it ever seems to need is in finding ways to improve on our imperfections. How to fix the minor problems. I say minor because with what problems there are, they aren't severe, they ( Read more... )

My little wish list ( Read more... )

You know, from the moment Ben and I started over, tried again to have a relationship beyond the friendship we spent eight years now creating and nuturing; I have know I had to be the luckiest women on the planet. I won't deny we have our fair share of problems, things we have to work on and/or work out. All couples do, I don't know of a single ( Read more... )

I watch people discuss their "busy" lives.. and while I agree many of you have busy lives... I still say mine takes the cake... I have to juggle a boyfriend.. and my job.. and soon school as well.. But see I work hours that are beyond your 9-5... I work from 6 am until at LEAST 10 at night, sometimes much later. Like try til 2am.. then turn around ( Read more... )

For those who don't know, today is the day I was born twenty-two years ago. Not much is different about today really other than that, though Ben's way of saying it is much cuter, but that's what he's best at. ^_^ I'm not really doing anything out of the ordinary today, going to see Ben when we both get off work tonight which won't be until close to ( Read more... )