whuuuuuuuuuuuuuut

[77_]

Ive became an akward, big fat - happy loser. lol, its really crazy for me. because its so different from who i was. and its not that im happy with being with steve, or with my life in general - im happy with myself. ive given up my crash diets, i can look at myself in the mirror - im just in general....good with myself, and i havent had this high

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[snootie]

Aw. :)
I'm glad everything is going super well &that you're happy :D

[__geekstah]

and then a big evil rat (i mean a small nice mouse named tucker) ran acrossed our feet! you are crazy. i'm so glad you are happy though :D it's so...touching ROFL to hear YOU be happy. -does my little shaky happy smile- yay you :D my mum is buying me the LB shirt tomarrow :D!!!! lub youu
♥ GNAR

[innerflight]

yeah lydia, you're right.. i thought i lost so much of me, so much of life but life did take an unexpected turn. (you've probably been to busy to read, etc) so nick mailed me two times in 6 days as he was really anxious to talk to me. i told him i wasn't really ready and stuff, but he was really interested in knowing how badly he hurt me. not because he wanted to stroke his ego or anything stupid, but because he wanted to make sure i was okay and to let me know how sorry he was. i still feel a little cautious, but we're talking normally again. it's hard for me to make the effort because i still feel slightly awkward/uncomfortable when talking, but i know i'll get over it in time. he said he still loves me, too... i don't think that he means it in the way i feel for him though. i think i'm just this concrete part of his life, that he doesn't really love me in any way more than a friend. kind of depressing to me but i guess i'll learn to live with it, i'd rather have this than nothing at all... but because it was so unexpected it still

[x_stoner]

thats a sweet entry. so glad u have found someone so good to you. good entry for v-day