Comments | 77_: realizeations.

77_

realizeations.

Feb 28, 2004 19:51

its im in an akward mood, i cant really say for sure if its bad or good - i dont think its bad, no, not bad - akward, akward fits it correctly. i finally have something to write about aye? yeah. Steve saw me naked. or has now seen every inch of my body - i didnt have sex with him, but he has seen my body now. i guess thats incredibly akward because ( Read more... )

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heartsickk February 29 2004, 01:19:03 UTC

why thank you, lydia. nothing happened with us. we're fine.

heartsickk February 29 2004, 01:31:53 UTC

btw -- i hope things get better with him :/

snootie February 29 2004, 01:37:05 UTC

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innerflight February 29 2004, 02:03:47 UTC

that must've been really scary, haha i could never do that x.x i swear i'm going to be like... closed inside myself the way i am now forever. cause you know everyone does things with everyone, and the fact that i'll be 18 soon and i haven't done *anything* is another issue of mine. what if i have a relationship, in real life? i think that someone would leave me because i'd be too scared to kiss them. if i told someone "oh i've never been kissed" they probably wouldn't believe me, and they'd think i was just prude or something... which.. i guess i am, but i don't know why being prude is a bad thing o_o ehh i'm just really worried about myself. i don't think that the time will come anytime soon, but when/and if it does i have a feeling not having any experience and being the age i am, or the age i will be, will cause some big problems for me ~_~

divineroutine February 29 2004, 04:24:37 UTC

God, that has to be like a whoa feeling. I'm not sure I can do that right about now. I mean my guy friends have seen my boobs or whatever and that's because we always used to fool around, but to have someone you really care about look at your body as an artform has to be scary and amazing all at the same time. Do you know if you want to have sex with him? If I don't get a phonecall from you know who before I go to bed, I can't sleep. I don't know what it is about his voice; it's so soothing that it makes everything ten times better. Did you tell Steve you started to cry when he called later on? I love you.
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77_ February 29 2004, 04:49:12 UTC

i dunno how exactly i feel about sex in general, but if i were to be comfortable with haveing sex with anyone, and it actually happening - it would definitly be steve i picture myself haveing sex with. & we've talked about it alot. - i didnt tell him i cried, i dunno how to tell him that, id look like a freak, & he did end up calling, just late - he probably would feel really bad er something that i cried, but be confused too. it was incredibly scary, amazeing too - but scary mostly. ppl have seen my boobs too, but not all of me - it was akward.
LUV

divineroutine February 29 2004, 04:51:20 UTC

Yeah, I know what you mean. I probably sound like a complete idiot, but having sex is a scary thought. Have you talked to him at all today?

77_ February 29 2004, 04:58:52 UTC

oh yeah, its no big deal now - he came over today. thats how he saw me nakkkked - heh, i cant really say sex is a scary thing - i think if sex is thought about as being something thats scary, then it shouldnt be done. i dont think you should have sex, until you really really want it. thank jesus me and scott didnt have sex, the opportunity was never there - because for some odd reason i was on my period everytime {fate possibly} - but we talked about it, ALOT.

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