No really do it
Break my face or break my heart
It's be a long hard 21 years
Kill me before I cut myself apart
No really I'm crying, I've just run out of tears
Break my fists or break my heart
Kill me before I rip myself apart.
My dreams are really nightmares to anyone watching
Living the fast life, hss me slowly dying
I can hear your advice, no need to be accosting
I've run out of tears, how the hell am I stil crying?
There's no such thing as a broken heart,
because it's awlays breaking.
Tonight, I couldn't find anyone to fight, I can't put away this rage, I can't get out of this lonely, depressive place, i like to listen to others problems to forget my own, my visions shaky and the tunnel has grown, i'll never be comfortable in this grave even though it's become my home.
I don't know how I feel, I just know i feel fucked up, not because of anything I took or drank tonight, I was feeling fucked up way before then. Moving to pensacola is actually kind of scaring me, because it can either be really good for me, or really bad for me, even when I'm winning, i still fear failing, i still feel like i'm failing. I need friends, real friends, but I feel like i can't turn to them, i shouldn't dump my feelings, my sadness, my self loathing, my selfishness, on to them. I wish i had the indifference to not just move on but move through life. My insides are a whirlwind. I just don't know. I want to spend time with someone i don't know too well, i feel they won't judge me if they don't know me too well, but that's unrealistic too. I don't care what people think about me, I don't care that people judge me, no man on this earth can judge me. Yet still...and I don't know.
I just get tired of life. Maybe that is just all it is. It's an exhausting circus, and by far the hardest job, the hardest trial, the hardest task, the hardest tribulation I've ever been through, is living.
Great, I just livejournaled myself sober. I work too soon, and I don't want to go to sleep, I don't think i could if I tried, but all i know how to do is try. So if try is all I can do, then i'm going to try my best.
It's be a long hard 21 years
Kill me before I cut myself apart
No really I'm crying, I've just run out of tears
Break my fists or break my heart
Kill me before I rip myself apart.
My dreams are really nightmares to anyone watching
Living the fast life, hss me slowly dying
I can hear your advice, no need to be accosting
I've run out of tears, how the hell am I stil crying?
There's no such thing as a broken heart,
because it's awlays breaking.
Tonight, I couldn't find anyone to fight, I can't put away this rage, I can't get out of this lonely, depressive place, i like to listen to others problems to forget my own, my visions shaky and the tunnel has grown, i'll never be comfortable in this grave even though it's become my home.
I don't know how I feel, I just know i feel fucked up, not because of anything I took or drank tonight, I was feeling fucked up way before then. Moving to pensacola is actually kind of scaring me, because it can either be really good for me, or really bad for me, even when I'm winning, i still fear failing, i still feel like i'm failing. I need friends, real friends, but I feel like i can't turn to them, i shouldn't dump my feelings, my sadness, my self loathing, my selfishness, on to them. I wish i had the indifference to not just move on but move through life. My insides are a whirlwind. I just don't know. I want to spend time with someone i don't know too well, i feel they won't judge me if they don't know me too well, but that's unrealistic too. I don't care what people think about me, I don't care that people judge me, no man on this earth can judge me. Yet still...and I don't know.
I just get tired of life. Maybe that is just all it is. It's an exhausting circus, and by far the hardest job, the hardest trial, the hardest task, the hardest tribulation I've ever been through, is living.
Great, I just livejournaled myself sober. I work too soon, and I don't want to go to sleep, I don't think i could if I tried, but all i know how to do is try. So if try is all I can do, then i'm going to try my best.