She's moving in a month and I still keep thinking that I should have said something three years ago. It's a little late, she already has a job and room mate waiting. I can't just be like " Hey I know you've never really had any feeling for me but could you please not move so I can figure out if we could end up together sometime in the future." I ( Read more... )

I don't know how many more times I can check my email and still retain sanity. I'm making somethign out of nothing. Everytime a girl contacts me over this site I freak out like maybe they might actually talk to me for more than a week. She even says she's just looking for firneds. Who the fuck is on a dating site to meet friends? Not me a least. I ( Read more... )

I'm not sure that the right thing to say would have been "I'm sorry, I'm not staring at your breasts. I was just admiring your scars." But I sure as hell though about it for some reason. I mean if it wasn't already obvious that I was hitting on her then I guess that would have done it. It doesn't help at all that she's good friends with the girl ( Read more... )

Today I got a call from a friend I hadn't heard from in at least a year. He wanted to know if we could chill and give him a ride to another friends house after. We chill and I find out something that will save me lots of time and money in the future so that's a plus. We end up hanging out too long and the guy he's meeting up with is pissed off so ( Read more... )

Went to Mayhem Fest on Friday. Most of the bands played outside and it was way to hot to see them all. But I got to see the two bands I wanted to see. Behemoth was sick. I got a pick from Nergal. He threw it out into the crowd I almost caught it out of mid air but it bounced off my hand and fell into the pit. Only one other guy saw it and he jumped ( Read more... )

Got my suburban back yesterday. They fixed the running lights and the A/C. With that my dad brought my computer back from Altex. He got a new bad ass case and a bad ass graphics card. Case and Card . I have more than a Terabyte of memory now.

I went an saw CKY last week. They played all but one song that I wish they would have played. I was the ( Read more... )

I went to another doctor to get a second opinion. He asked me a bunch of questions and just by that ruled out what the other doctor thought. He says that he dosn't want to rush to any conclusions but said it had to do with dehydration. Basically I get dehydrated and my blood gets more concentrated and my blood pressure goes down. Also that when it' ( Read more... )

I spent a few days in the Hospital and they have concluded that I have Neurocardiogenic Syncope or Vasovagal syncope. "Vasovagal syncope most often happens to people in stressful or painful situations that causes them anxiety, for example, when having blood drawn or receiving an injection."

So basically I had a panic attack that lead to me passing ( Read more... )

There's something seriously wrong with me. Last night I passed out in my living room. By pass out I mean I fell face forward out of a office chair and now have a large cut on the inside of my nose and carpet burn on my face.

I went to the Shell by my house today. The cute new girl working there complimented my CKY shirt. I took me a second to realize that she was listening to CKY on her radio. We were still talking after I was out of line and she was ringing up another person telling me about how the singer almost got hung when he was faking getting hung and the ( Read more... )