nothing seems to be same anymore, i wake i sleep whenever i get a chance and nothings changing, my life has gotten worse and i feel like theres nothing i can do about it. i feel like a have no control about some things, and just days seem gloomy. i went to the beach the other day just to walk around got some coffe and smoked some ciggs. its funny ( Read more... )

I cant believe i cant sleep im going nuts man seriously. its already 3:47 am and i have to get up at 6, what am i going to do? i wonder sometimes if he thinks about how good we really could be. someone told me he never trusted me because he was there as a friend before and saw my previous relationships, but def. cared about me. cared about me so ( Read more... )

im at school right now and well i thought i had a test and it turns out i didnt (lol) oppss... oh well. the good thing about it is that now i get to study at least one more day witch is awsome. i talked to tiffany today when i picked her up for school. she was telling me about the ale house lastnight and how much fun they all had, thats awsome. ( Read more... )

WELL....LET'S SEE LASTNIGHT I WENT TO SUSHI AND TO THE MOVIES WITH JASON, YES WE DID GET BACK TOGETHER. I HONESTLY DID NOT THINK WE WERE GONNA GET BACK TOGETHER, BUT AFTER SEEING HIM 3 DAYS AGO THINGS WERE DIFFERENT. IT WAS LIKE A SAW HIM AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN EVERYTHING CAME BACK TO ME, MY FEELINGS FOR HIM. THINGS BETWEEN HIM AND I WERENT ALL ( Read more... )

it seems as if no one ever writes on here anymore, everyone has sold out lj for myspace i think its pretty funny but w.e. im at jasons house and he is bitching because they havent fixed his camera yet and its been a while, i dont blame him for getting pissed off. days dont seem the same to me as they use to, i dont know why that is. we ate at some ( Read more... )

i hate being high sometimes i really do for some reason ( Read more... )

omg its been like a long time since i've writen anything in this thing. its almost amazing how time fly's me by. well im here at jason's house my baby that i love with all my heart. waiting for the hurricane to strike us, hopefully nothing big happens, i mean distruction wise. a little bit of rain and some torn up trees i can take but thats about ( Read more... )

I must say last night was amazingly different from every other night i've had in a while, so this is how it starts. I worked lastnight till 9:30, then i went home and then i was just here bored, bianca, mike, brian, and i smoked smoe pot and i put some posters up that i bought from F.Y.E, i was really bored, i kept on sighning on and off line i was ( Read more... )

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"there is no other woman in this world that i would rather be with "HE SAID. "no woman will ever make me feel like you do, iam very thankful to have you in my life and that we share such strong feelings for eachother. without you in my life i dont know where i would be right now and i really dont want to know. i love you with all my heart, suray. ( Read more... )