#Fic# Unable to respond //Chapter 7//
Title: Unable to respond (Ch 7)
Author: tanakakoki_fan
Pairing: Akame
Rating: PG (for now)
Genre: Angst, romance
Disclaimer: I don’t own them!
Summary: (Uhh I suck at summaries… ^^”) Kame is closed in his own world… he can feel he can hear, but can’t respond. Will Jin’s love give him the light to live on?
AN: I don’t have beta, I am sorry if my grammar is wrong or if I mispell something. Feel free to correct me! =)
CHAPTER 7
Jin turned in his bed and felt like shit. He opened his eyes and the first thing that greeted him was the still raining sky outside the window. No rays of sun could shine through the tick curtain of clouds and it caused darkness as if it was still evening. Jin felt so tired, he thought it is just 4 or 5 AM, but to reassure himself he looked at the turtle-shaped clock on the small table next to the bed. Well, the reassurance he waited didn’t come, since it was 7:00 AM and in 1 hours he had to be at work.
„Hell nooo…” he whined and pulled the blanket to his head and tired to hide under it. He was never a morning person and since Kazuya was at the hospital he didn’t see much motivation to go to work. It was boring, it was stressing, and he always watched the clock, counting when he can go and visit Kame. Every morning he got up for one reason, for the hope to see the other healthy again. He sighed, this time he couldn’t dream about his Kazuya… actually he dreamed nothing. He was so tired after yesterday, running that much and behaving himself… then dragging Pi away, trying to defend himself from the flooding questions asked by his best friend.
He slowly rised into a sitting position and grimaced.
„Uhh..” his head hurt and he felt somewhat weird. „Great…. damn… I cought a cold…”the luck was, he knew how to fight with it, how to make it the way nobody notices. He was an idol, he learned to cover things like these. And not to forget he was an actor too. These days really tested his acting skills and it exhausted him mentally.
He pulled the blanket away and got to his feet, streching his arms up to the air ro make the stiffness in his body go away. He went to the bathroom and washed his face in cold water then began to change into his work clothes. Today recording again..
„Shit!” he cursed as he looked at the clock, it showed 7:16. He turned to leave quickly, but before he could take a step he stopped. Returning his gaze to the night table where the picture of him and Kazuya was. He had a strange feeling, that something will happen today. He just didn’t know it was bad or good but he felt a little tensed.
„Ohayou Kazuya-love.” he smiled at the picture. How he wished he could say this to the actual person. He looked at his bed, imagining Kazuya lays there sleeping peacefully with a smile on his face… it was Jin’s dream. To wake up next to the one he loves.
As he imagined how he would go to him, lay on the bed next to him and wake him up with a kiss it was too much for him to bear. He shut his eyes for a second to calm himself and excited his room.
**
„It was not that terrible to visit Kame-chan ne?” Koki asked much to his annoyance. Why can’t he just shut up?
„Koki… wouldn’t you just practice and leave me alone?” Jin muttered.
„Oh of course, but it’s good to know you outgrew your childish state and are not so stubborn anymore.” He grinned, he really started to see Jin in different view. Maybe he wasn’t that selfish little kid after all. „Omedetou Bakanishi!”
„Koki, don’t you have recording?” Ueda asked and the rapper eyed him.
„Uh yeah. It is my turn if you are ready. Then~ ittekimasu and just watch how rapperking joker sings.” He smirked.
„Whatever…” Jin mumbled and reached for his guitar but Ueda’s voice stopped him.
„I know it is hard for you… the hardest out of us.” the black haired beauty said in a serious tone. Jin snapped his head up to meet Ueda’s eyes in disbelief.
„What?”
„He will be allright Jin. Just stay by his side and he will come back.” Ueda smiled and before the other could answer he disappeared into the other room.
Jin just sat there dumbfounded. Does Ueda know? It is impossible. He was sure he didn’t make mistake, they can’t know it. He arranged everything every time, okay previously they caught him there but still… Jin sighed. How can Ueda always know what was going on? It is somewhat scary. There was an unexplainable mysterious area around their official leader which sometimes made him speechless. But he didn’t want to think too much of mystery, he hated ghosts and such things. It was - besides insects - he feared the most. Until now… now he feared to lose Kazuya the most. He would spend a week or years in a hounted house full of ghosts or walk into a room covered everywhere with cockroaches if it means to see Kazuya healthy again.
The day went slow, and Jin tried really hard not to sneeze. No, he definitely won’t lose to this light cold, he can manage to cover it up. Everything is fine… nah… not everything. The strange feeling inside of him, this anxiousity grew by every second, he was sure today something will happen.
Finally when the work was over he hurried home, forgeting to great the kouhais in the way out of JE building. He stepped into his car and sped up, but trying to keep the speed under the limit.
**
*Tinggg*
The sound of the elevator could be heared as he stepped out of it. Nurses and doctors went in and out of rooms as always, but no matter how everything looked like it always did Jin was more anxious. This feeling inside of him didn’t stop. He stopped in front of Kazuya’s room and took a deep breath.
He opened the door and stepped in. He almost lost the grip on the rose he had, his eyes grew wide from shock. Kazuya’s bed was empty, covered with a white sheet. The machines that once kept him alive were all unplugged, the screens that once showed Kazuya’s pulse were now pitch black. The cranes and flowers he once brought there were nowhere to seen, neither Kazuya’s other stuff. The room looked untouched, as if noone lied there before. Silence laid there… Dead silence.
Dead… death… did my Kazuya…?
Jin felt like he will faint… no this can’t be true! No! He won’t accept this. He wanted to run out to ask a nurse, but he was unable to move. His muscles tense, his body trembled from shock, from unshead tears… no, he was even too shocked to cry. His mind was blank. He just kept standing there watching the empty bed in silence, trying to acknowledge te fact Kazuya is not there… Kazuya is not there anymore.
What happened? And if Kazuya died why wasn’t he informed? His trembling hands reached for his cell phone, this was all the movement he could do at the moment. He dealed Ueda’s number and listened to the calling sound.
„Moshi moshi!” He heared Ueda’s voice.
„T..Tacchan..?” Jin couldn’t hide the desperation in his voice, all the fear he had, he didn’t even know what he is saying anymore.
„Jin?” Ueda asked worried. „What’s wrong?”
„D..Did you.. visit Kazu-chan today?” His voice trembled, and didn’t even realize he called Kame with his other name again.
„Yes Jin, we were there why? I am sorry he is still the same. We br-„
Jin hung the phone up and looked broken out of the window without blinking. He looked but didn’t see anything his senses were numb.
Where is my Kazuya? Where??
He slowly found the strength to exit the room, still feeling like he was not really conscious he became aware of a couple dressed in black and crying. The woman buried his head in the neck of his husband crying while the man holds her tightly, fighting with his tears.
Mr and Mrs Kamenashi?
Jin thought, the faces of the persons were too far to be recognized, but it was all Jin could think of now. So it is true… Kazuya passed away. All memories rushed to him and he shook his head. He remembered Kazuya’s smile, his voice, everything he ever did. How they went to the onsen together years ago, how Kazuya always helped him and reassured him when he had trouble or when he was angry that his lyric isn’t good. At this moment Jin began to wonder when this love started. Maybe they were always been in love. And this clenched his heart…all he did was hurting Kazuya by being so cold for so many years.
I am sorry Kazuya… So sorry!
He felt his legs weaker than before and he leant against the wall, the rose slipping through his trembling fingers. It is just a dream… a nightmare… he wanted to die.
„Akanishi-san?” a nurse suddenly called his name but he was too lost, he did’t realized it really.
„A..Akanishi Jin-san?” the nurse tried again and Jin looked at him and remembered it is the same girl he caught before some time ago. The girl’s eyes widened, she looked worried. Jin didn’t want to know how he looked like now. He felt barely alive.
„Do you want me to call a doctor Akanishi-san? You look pale. Are you alright?” The girl gathered all her courage to speak to him, her heart beated fast.
„Where is he?” Jin asked faintly. „Did he… die?”
The girl looked at him questioningly.
„Die? You mean… Kamenashi-san?” she didn’t dare to look into his eyes.
„Did Kazu-chan die?!” Jin demanded and all faces turned to him, the nurse standing in front of him gave out a startled gasp. The man’s face was so different now, different as on all the posters, the TV shows. She had never seen Jin like that.
„N…no… Kamenashi-san is alive, he is… transported into another room because he got better all of a sudden and the machines were no longer nessesary.” She ranted nervously and saw the relievement on the other’s face.
Jin felt as if a weight fell down from his heart, the strange feeling gone and he felt like crying hard, but he controled himself. His Kazuya is safe, he is still here with him, not gone anywhere. He was so happy to hear that, nothing in this world made him that happy. He looked at the crying couple and now he saw they are not Kame’s parents. He felt sorry for them but he couldn’t help being selfish. Selfish because he couldn’t care really. All he cared was his Kazuya being better. He took deep breaths and looked at the girl who smiled. He couldn’t help but smile back. At that the girl blushed.
„Please take me to his room.” he asked, his normal voice returning again.
„O…Of course, follow me.” she said in a nervous tone again nd watched how the man picks up the rose with a small smile and she found it strange a little. But she didn’t think of it, she couldn’t think, not when her super idol was standing next to her.
„So he woke up?” Jin asked hopefully as they were walking down on the hallway.
„No, I am sorry Akanishi-san, he didn’t, but his life functions returned to normal and so the machines are not needed anymore.” The girl answered and stopped in front of a door.
„He is in here.” the girl smiled and looked blushed at the man in front of him.
„Thank you…” Jin hesitated, he just realized he didn’t know the girl’s name.
„Tomoko.” the girl introduced herself. „Mizushima Tomoko desu.” He bowed.
„Yoroshiku ne. Tomoko-chan, can you leave us alone with Kazuya?” he asked as the girl was about to enter the room too.
„H..Hai! Gomen nasai!” She exclaimed while scolding herself in her mind.
„Arigatou!” Jin smiled and disappeared in the room, closing the door behind him. The girl hurried away, still blushing. She could die for that smile. She smiled wide at remembering it. Can it be Jin feels for her something? She was so excited to see him again.
**
In the room Kazuya waited nervously. He was so proud of himself, he couldn’t wait Jin to come to visit him. He took a step to healing. He was so happy, he wanted Jin to come quickly.
~Jin I hope you come, I hope you will be proud of me~
The Kazuya in the box now was able to walk freely, he saw the door shining but he couldn’t really go close to it. Every time he tried his energy vanished. But he was glad he could at least walk around in that dark box which somehow was not so dark anymore.
**
Jin stepped into the room and looked at the bed near the window. There he was, his love lying now without those cruel machines surrounding him. Kazuya really looked like if he were just sleeping. His chest rose up and down as he breathed. One half of Jin’s heart was smiling, Kazuya is better… but the the one was crying. He still looks the same, he is still unable to respond. But Jin believed he is hearing every word, feeling everything and he was not so unsure of their bond anymore. At times he thought if Kazuya wake up and forgets everything he won’t confess his feelings. Now, he becasme more and more sure he will confess. Somehow he felt Kame return his feeling. Without words or actions… he felt there is a bond between them that doesn’t need words. Now he managed to convience himself he is not only selfishly pretends he is Kazuya’s lover, the other wants to be his too.
„Kazuya…” he said with a soft tone.
~Jiiiin! You are here finally! Na, naa, are you proud of me? Jin, I am closer to you with one step! With you I can do it!! i will heal, I feel it!~
He felt Jin sit at the edge of the bed and caresses his face. It was strange but he felt he is seeing Jin’s outlines mentally. It felt so good, if he could he would have purred.
„You scared me so much!” Jin stated and Kame felt the other takes his hand and squeezes it tightly.
~Scared? Why?~
„ When i went to your room it was all empty.. I thought for a moment you died… Oh my God.. Kazuya it felt so terrible..”
~Aww Jin… I am here, I am not dead.~ He wished nothing than to hug Jin and comfort him.
„And then a nurse told me you are alive and better. I was so glad. I knew it Kazuya, you can make it! you are strong! I am proud of you!” He said smiling.
~No.. not me who is strong… it is „us”. Without you I am not strong. I can only manage because you are here for me, because you love me. You are my strength Jin.~
„Oh and don’t think I forgot to bring you rose and crane. This time the crain made out of two colored paper… two in one, like us.” Jin chuckled.
„The colors are orange and white… because our costumes were these two colors when we sang our song ”Destiny”. You are my destiny Kazu-chan.” jin smiled more and leaned down to kiss the boy.
Kazuya’s heart soared and beated fast. He felt he is getting better again and walking to the door was so easy now. But he still couldn’t reach it. It was only a few meters away. Kazuya beamed, he was never that close to the door before.
He wanted to kiss back, to tell Jin not to end it, to tell him how much just a simple kiss helps him.
~You are my destiny too Jin. When I wake up, I will sing this song to you… as the song I thought out while I was lying here. I just can’t write it down but I am sure I won’t forget it. It is not comlete yet, but I am sure I can complete it soon. It will be my song for you.~
When Jin pulled away he leaned his head next to Kazuya’s.
„I think Ueda suspects something…” He whispered. It made the Kazuya in the box look up startled. He didn’t want the others to find out, because he was afraid they will take Jin away from him. And in his state he has no possibility to show resistance. He feared it the most.
„But don’t worry, he is discreet as always. He won’t make trouble for us. And I am not even sure he knows.”
~Then it is all good, the most important thing is that you stay by my side, I wouldn’t bear it if they wanted to take you away from me. I have never been in love before you and I know you are the other half of my soul.~
„But you know even if the whole begin to know it, noone could ever make me leave you or take us apart. I believe you love me too and I owe it to us. Bad luck Kamenashi Kazuya, you can never make me go away even if you wanted to. I became your stalker.” He laughed and if Kazuya could he would have laugh with him too.
~Silly.~
Jin talked about few more thing, being happier and happier as he convienced himself that Kazuya will wake up soon, but the visiting time ended. It always ended too soon in both of their opinion and so Jin had to go.
„I really hope I can hear your voice soon Kazu.” Jin said as he raised from his sitting position.
~I hope it too Jin.~
„See you tomorrow. I love you.” Jin smiled and waved peace sign after a very short goodbye kiss.
~I love you too Jin. Come to me soon.~ Kazuya felt like a teenager in love. He should been depressed, because he is lying for more than 10 weeks in a hospital, unable to respond to his surroundings, but instead he felt happy all over and could jumps from hyperness. He waited for the day exited when he can run into Jin’s arms and return all the love he gets from the other man.
~Thank you Jin, thank you so much.~
**
„Moshi moshi Chinami?” Tomoko said to the phone as she was lying home in her bed.
„Tomoko?” the girl said sleepily. „Do you know what time is it??”
„I met Akanishi Jin-sama again today.” She smiled wide, her eyes shone.
„What?? Oh my God!! How is he?! You saw him? Live? How did you meet him?? Where and why??”
„Oh yes yes, he is cool!... How I met him? I didn’t tell yet?” she was surprised.
„No you didn’t!” the girl snapped back now excitedly.
„It is a secret… do you promise me you won’t say to anyone?
„Yes yes, of course, just tell it!”
„The truth about Kamenashi Kazuya is not what the newspapers write. He is lying in our hospital in… ermm.. are you sure you are ready for this? You love him so much.”
„Tomoko, don’t joke around just tell it!”
„Okay… but promise me you… won’t cry so hard. Well, Kamenshi is is our hospital lying in coma. And Akanishi alaways visits him that’s when I met him.”
„What??!?!? My Kazuya is coma?!” The girl cried out loud and sniffled.
„But I am sure he will be allright, he is better.”
„I want to see him!!”
„You can’t!” Tomoko panicked. „I promised I won’t tell and if I bring you there I will be in trouble.”
„Pleeease Tomo-chan pleeease!” the girl pleaded. „You know how I am, I will tell everyone if you don’t bring me to him.” She smirked.
„Okay okay, but just once!”
„Okay, just once.” Chinami nodded.
They talked for another half hour faning KAT-TUN before they hung up.
„Tomorrow will be a good day.” Chinami smiled, watching a poster of Kazuya on her wall.
„Wait for me darling.”
**
Jin threw his shoes away and collapsed on his bed. What a day! But Kazuya was better, that is what the most important thing is. He winched as he remembered the feeling he felt when he thought Kazuya died. He never wanted to feel it again. He was too tired to change to his pajamas, he just pulled the blanket to him and hugged it tight. He forgot about his cold and he didn’t feel the urge to sneeze anymore.
„Kazu-chan, I hope one day i will hug you instead of this.” He nuzzled into the fabric, daydreaming that it is Kazuya and so he fell asleep with a smile on his face.
*****
TBC =)
AN: Sorry that it took much time for me to update, but finally I am free, so I hope i can update more often.
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Author: tanakakoki_fan
Pairing: Akame
Rating: PG (for now)
Genre: Angst, romance
Disclaimer: I don’t own them!
Summary: (Uhh I suck at summaries… ^^”) Kame is closed in his own world… he can feel he can hear, but can’t respond. Will Jin’s love give him the light to live on?
AN: I don’t have beta, I am sorry if my grammar is wrong or if I mispell something. Feel free to correct me! =)
CHAPTER 7
Jin turned in his bed and felt like shit. He opened his eyes and the first thing that greeted him was the still raining sky outside the window. No rays of sun could shine through the tick curtain of clouds and it caused darkness as if it was still evening. Jin felt so tired, he thought it is just 4 or 5 AM, but to reassure himself he looked at the turtle-shaped clock on the small table next to the bed. Well, the reassurance he waited didn’t come, since it was 7:00 AM and in 1 hours he had to be at work.
„Hell nooo…” he whined and pulled the blanket to his head and tired to hide under it. He was never a morning person and since Kazuya was at the hospital he didn’t see much motivation to go to work. It was boring, it was stressing, and he always watched the clock, counting when he can go and visit Kame. Every morning he got up for one reason, for the hope to see the other healthy again. He sighed, this time he couldn’t dream about his Kazuya… actually he dreamed nothing. He was so tired after yesterday, running that much and behaving himself… then dragging Pi away, trying to defend himself from the flooding questions asked by his best friend.
He slowly rised into a sitting position and grimaced.
„Uhh..” his head hurt and he felt somewhat weird. „Great…. damn… I cought a cold…”the luck was, he knew how to fight with it, how to make it the way nobody notices. He was an idol, he learned to cover things like these. And not to forget he was an actor too. These days really tested his acting skills and it exhausted him mentally.
He pulled the blanket away and got to his feet, streching his arms up to the air ro make the stiffness in his body go away. He went to the bathroom and washed his face in cold water then began to change into his work clothes. Today recording again..
„Shit!” he cursed as he looked at the clock, it showed 7:16. He turned to leave quickly, but before he could take a step he stopped. Returning his gaze to the night table where the picture of him and Kazuya was. He had a strange feeling, that something will happen today. He just didn’t know it was bad or good but he felt a little tensed.
„Ohayou Kazuya-love.” he smiled at the picture. How he wished he could say this to the actual person. He looked at his bed, imagining Kazuya lays there sleeping peacefully with a smile on his face… it was Jin’s dream. To wake up next to the one he loves.
As he imagined how he would go to him, lay on the bed next to him and wake him up with a kiss it was too much for him to bear. He shut his eyes for a second to calm himself and excited his room.
**
„It was not that terrible to visit Kame-chan ne?” Koki asked much to his annoyance. Why can’t he just shut up?
„Koki… wouldn’t you just practice and leave me alone?” Jin muttered.
„Oh of course, but it’s good to know you outgrew your childish state and are not so stubborn anymore.” He grinned, he really started to see Jin in different view. Maybe he wasn’t that selfish little kid after all. „Omedetou Bakanishi!”
„Koki, don’t you have recording?” Ueda asked and the rapper eyed him.
„Uh yeah. It is my turn if you are ready. Then~ ittekimasu and just watch how rapperking joker sings.” He smirked.
„Whatever…” Jin mumbled and reached for his guitar but Ueda’s voice stopped him.
„I know it is hard for you… the hardest out of us.” the black haired beauty said in a serious tone. Jin snapped his head up to meet Ueda’s eyes in disbelief.
„What?”
„He will be allright Jin. Just stay by his side and he will come back.” Ueda smiled and before the other could answer he disappeared into the other room.
Jin just sat there dumbfounded. Does Ueda know? It is impossible. He was sure he didn’t make mistake, they can’t know it. He arranged everything every time, okay previously they caught him there but still… Jin sighed. How can Ueda always know what was going on? It is somewhat scary. There was an unexplainable mysterious area around their official leader which sometimes made him speechless. But he didn’t want to think too much of mystery, he hated ghosts and such things. It was - besides insects - he feared the most. Until now… now he feared to lose Kazuya the most. He would spend a week or years in a hounted house full of ghosts or walk into a room covered everywhere with cockroaches if it means to see Kazuya healthy again.
The day went slow, and Jin tried really hard not to sneeze. No, he definitely won’t lose to this light cold, he can manage to cover it up. Everything is fine… nah… not everything. The strange feeling inside of him, this anxiousity grew by every second, he was sure today something will happen.
Finally when the work was over he hurried home, forgeting to great the kouhais in the way out of JE building. He stepped into his car and sped up, but trying to keep the speed under the limit.
**
*Tinggg*
The sound of the elevator could be heared as he stepped out of it. Nurses and doctors went in and out of rooms as always, but no matter how everything looked like it always did Jin was more anxious. This feeling inside of him didn’t stop. He stopped in front of Kazuya’s room and took a deep breath.
He opened the door and stepped in. He almost lost the grip on the rose he had, his eyes grew wide from shock. Kazuya’s bed was empty, covered with a white sheet. The machines that once kept him alive were all unplugged, the screens that once showed Kazuya’s pulse were now pitch black. The cranes and flowers he once brought there were nowhere to seen, neither Kazuya’s other stuff. The room looked untouched, as if noone lied there before. Silence laid there… Dead silence.
Dead… death… did my Kazuya…?
Jin felt like he will faint… no this can’t be true! No! He won’t accept this. He wanted to run out to ask a nurse, but he was unable to move. His muscles tense, his body trembled from shock, from unshead tears… no, he was even too shocked to cry. His mind was blank. He just kept standing there watching the empty bed in silence, trying to acknowledge te fact Kazuya is not there… Kazuya is not there anymore.
What happened? And if Kazuya died why wasn’t he informed? His trembling hands reached for his cell phone, this was all the movement he could do at the moment. He dealed Ueda’s number and listened to the calling sound.
„Moshi moshi!” He heared Ueda’s voice.
„T..Tacchan..?” Jin couldn’t hide the desperation in his voice, all the fear he had, he didn’t even know what he is saying anymore.
„Jin?” Ueda asked worried. „What’s wrong?”
„D..Did you.. visit Kazu-chan today?” His voice trembled, and didn’t even realize he called Kame with his other name again.
„Yes Jin, we were there why? I am sorry he is still the same. We br-„
Jin hung the phone up and looked broken out of the window without blinking. He looked but didn’t see anything his senses were numb.
Where is my Kazuya? Where??
He slowly found the strength to exit the room, still feeling like he was not really conscious he became aware of a couple dressed in black and crying. The woman buried his head in the neck of his husband crying while the man holds her tightly, fighting with his tears.
Mr and Mrs Kamenashi?
Jin thought, the faces of the persons were too far to be recognized, but it was all Jin could think of now. So it is true… Kazuya passed away. All memories rushed to him and he shook his head. He remembered Kazuya’s smile, his voice, everything he ever did. How they went to the onsen together years ago, how Kazuya always helped him and reassured him when he had trouble or when he was angry that his lyric isn’t good. At this moment Jin began to wonder when this love started. Maybe they were always been in love. And this clenched his heart…all he did was hurting Kazuya by being so cold for so many years.
I am sorry Kazuya… So sorry!
He felt his legs weaker than before and he leant against the wall, the rose slipping through his trembling fingers. It is just a dream… a nightmare… he wanted to die.
„Akanishi-san?” a nurse suddenly called his name but he was too lost, he did’t realized it really.
„A..Akanishi Jin-san?” the nurse tried again and Jin looked at him and remembered it is the same girl he caught before some time ago. The girl’s eyes widened, she looked worried. Jin didn’t want to know how he looked like now. He felt barely alive.
„Do you want me to call a doctor Akanishi-san? You look pale. Are you alright?” The girl gathered all her courage to speak to him, her heart beated fast.
„Where is he?” Jin asked faintly. „Did he… die?”
The girl looked at him questioningly.
„Die? You mean… Kamenashi-san?” she didn’t dare to look into his eyes.
„Did Kazu-chan die?!” Jin demanded and all faces turned to him, the nurse standing in front of him gave out a startled gasp. The man’s face was so different now, different as on all the posters, the TV shows. She had never seen Jin like that.
„N…no… Kamenashi-san is alive, he is… transported into another room because he got better all of a sudden and the machines were no longer nessesary.” She ranted nervously and saw the relievement on the other’s face.
Jin felt as if a weight fell down from his heart, the strange feeling gone and he felt like crying hard, but he controled himself. His Kazuya is safe, he is still here with him, not gone anywhere. He was so happy to hear that, nothing in this world made him that happy. He looked at the crying couple and now he saw they are not Kame’s parents. He felt sorry for them but he couldn’t help being selfish. Selfish because he couldn’t care really. All he cared was his Kazuya being better. He took deep breaths and looked at the girl who smiled. He couldn’t help but smile back. At that the girl blushed.
„Please take me to his room.” he asked, his normal voice returning again.
„O…Of course, follow me.” she said in a nervous tone again nd watched how the man picks up the rose with a small smile and she found it strange a little. But she didn’t think of it, she couldn’t think, not when her super idol was standing next to her.
„So he woke up?” Jin asked hopefully as they were walking down on the hallway.
„No, I am sorry Akanishi-san, he didn’t, but his life functions returned to normal and so the machines are not needed anymore.” The girl answered and stopped in front of a door.
„He is in here.” the girl smiled and looked blushed at the man in front of him.
„Thank you…” Jin hesitated, he just realized he didn’t know the girl’s name.
„Tomoko.” the girl introduced herself. „Mizushima Tomoko desu.” He bowed.
„Yoroshiku ne. Tomoko-chan, can you leave us alone with Kazuya?” he asked as the girl was about to enter the room too.
„H..Hai! Gomen nasai!” She exclaimed while scolding herself in her mind.
„Arigatou!” Jin smiled and disappeared in the room, closing the door behind him. The girl hurried away, still blushing. She could die for that smile. She smiled wide at remembering it. Can it be Jin feels for her something? She was so excited to see him again.
**
In the room Kazuya waited nervously. He was so proud of himself, he couldn’t wait Jin to come to visit him. He took a step to healing. He was so happy, he wanted Jin to come quickly.
~Jin I hope you come, I hope you will be proud of me~
The Kazuya in the box now was able to walk freely, he saw the door shining but he couldn’t really go close to it. Every time he tried his energy vanished. But he was glad he could at least walk around in that dark box which somehow was not so dark anymore.
**
Jin stepped into the room and looked at the bed near the window. There he was, his love lying now without those cruel machines surrounding him. Kazuya really looked like if he were just sleeping. His chest rose up and down as he breathed. One half of Jin’s heart was smiling, Kazuya is better… but the the one was crying. He still looks the same, he is still unable to respond. But Jin believed he is hearing every word, feeling everything and he was not so unsure of their bond anymore. At times he thought if Kazuya wake up and forgets everything he won’t confess his feelings. Now, he becasme more and more sure he will confess. Somehow he felt Kame return his feeling. Without words or actions… he felt there is a bond between them that doesn’t need words. Now he managed to convience himself he is not only selfishly pretends he is Kazuya’s lover, the other wants to be his too.
„Kazuya…” he said with a soft tone.
~Jiiiin! You are here finally! Na, naa, are you proud of me? Jin, I am closer to you with one step! With you I can do it!! i will heal, I feel it!~
He felt Jin sit at the edge of the bed and caresses his face. It was strange but he felt he is seeing Jin’s outlines mentally. It felt so good, if he could he would have purred.
„You scared me so much!” Jin stated and Kame felt the other takes his hand and squeezes it tightly.
~Scared? Why?~
„ When i went to your room it was all empty.. I thought for a moment you died… Oh my God.. Kazuya it felt so terrible..”
~Aww Jin… I am here, I am not dead.~ He wished nothing than to hug Jin and comfort him.
„And then a nurse told me you are alive and better. I was so glad. I knew it Kazuya, you can make it! you are strong! I am proud of you!” He said smiling.
~No.. not me who is strong… it is „us”. Without you I am not strong. I can only manage because you are here for me, because you love me. You are my strength Jin.~
„Oh and don’t think I forgot to bring you rose and crane. This time the crain made out of two colored paper… two in one, like us.” Jin chuckled.
„The colors are orange and white… because our costumes were these two colors when we sang our song ”Destiny”. You are my destiny Kazu-chan.” jin smiled more and leaned down to kiss the boy.
Kazuya’s heart soared and beated fast. He felt he is getting better again and walking to the door was so easy now. But he still couldn’t reach it. It was only a few meters away. Kazuya beamed, he was never that close to the door before.
He wanted to kiss back, to tell Jin not to end it, to tell him how much just a simple kiss helps him.
~You are my destiny too Jin. When I wake up, I will sing this song to you… as the song I thought out while I was lying here. I just can’t write it down but I am sure I won’t forget it. It is not comlete yet, but I am sure I can complete it soon. It will be my song for you.~
When Jin pulled away he leaned his head next to Kazuya’s.
„I think Ueda suspects something…” He whispered. It made the Kazuya in the box look up startled. He didn’t want the others to find out, because he was afraid they will take Jin away from him. And in his state he has no possibility to show resistance. He feared it the most.
„But don’t worry, he is discreet as always. He won’t make trouble for us. And I am not even sure he knows.”
~Then it is all good, the most important thing is that you stay by my side, I wouldn’t bear it if they wanted to take you away from me. I have never been in love before you and I know you are the other half of my soul.~
„But you know even if the whole begin to know it, noone could ever make me leave you or take us apart. I believe you love me too and I owe it to us. Bad luck Kamenashi Kazuya, you can never make me go away even if you wanted to. I became your stalker.” He laughed and if Kazuya could he would have laugh with him too.
~Silly.~
Jin talked about few more thing, being happier and happier as he convienced himself that Kazuya will wake up soon, but the visiting time ended. It always ended too soon in both of their opinion and so Jin had to go.
„I really hope I can hear your voice soon Kazu.” Jin said as he raised from his sitting position.
~I hope it too Jin.~
„See you tomorrow. I love you.” Jin smiled and waved peace sign after a very short goodbye kiss.
~I love you too Jin. Come to me soon.~ Kazuya felt like a teenager in love. He should been depressed, because he is lying for more than 10 weeks in a hospital, unable to respond to his surroundings, but instead he felt happy all over and could jumps from hyperness. He waited for the day exited when he can run into Jin’s arms and return all the love he gets from the other man.
~Thank you Jin, thank you so much.~
**
„Moshi moshi Chinami?” Tomoko said to the phone as she was lying home in her bed.
„Tomoko?” the girl said sleepily. „Do you know what time is it??”
„I met Akanishi Jin-sama again today.” She smiled wide, her eyes shone.
„What?? Oh my God!! How is he?! You saw him? Live? How did you meet him?? Where and why??”
„Oh yes yes, he is cool!... How I met him? I didn’t tell yet?” she was surprised.
„No you didn’t!” the girl snapped back now excitedly.
„It is a secret… do you promise me you won’t say to anyone?
„Yes yes, of course, just tell it!”
„The truth about Kamenashi Kazuya is not what the newspapers write. He is lying in our hospital in… ermm.. are you sure you are ready for this? You love him so much.”
„Tomoko, don’t joke around just tell it!”
„Okay… but promise me you… won’t cry so hard. Well, Kamenshi is is our hospital lying in coma. And Akanishi alaways visits him that’s when I met him.”
„What??!?!? My Kazuya is coma?!” The girl cried out loud and sniffled.
„But I am sure he will be allright, he is better.”
„I want to see him!!”
„You can’t!” Tomoko panicked. „I promised I won’t tell and if I bring you there I will be in trouble.”
„Pleeease Tomo-chan pleeease!” the girl pleaded. „You know how I am, I will tell everyone if you don’t bring me to him.” She smirked.
„Okay okay, but just once!”
„Okay, just once.” Chinami nodded.
They talked for another half hour faning KAT-TUN before they hung up.
„Tomorrow will be a good day.” Chinami smiled, watching a poster of Kazuya on her wall.
„Wait for me darling.”
**
Jin threw his shoes away and collapsed on his bed. What a day! But Kazuya was better, that is what the most important thing is. He winched as he remembered the feeling he felt when he thought Kazuya died. He never wanted to feel it again. He was too tired to change to his pajamas, he just pulled the blanket to him and hugged it tight. He forgot about his cold and he didn’t feel the urge to sneeze anymore.
„Kazu-chan, I hope one day i will hug you instead of this.” He nuzzled into the fabric, daydreaming that it is Kazuya and so he fell asleep with a smile on his face.
*****
TBC =)
AN: Sorry that it took much time for me to update, but finally I am free, so I hope i can update more often.
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