i feel like i haven't said or done anything useful in a while. i feel like i haven't done anything worth doing in a while yet i've done quite a bit. i don't want vacation to end. it's been draining yet enjoyable. i wish i could do something like skate or sing or play an insturment. if i'm not talking or hanging out with someone one on one, i feel ( Read more... )

ADMIT IT! Despite your pseudo-bohemian appearance and vaguely leftist doctrine of beliefs, you know nothing of art or sex that you couldn't read in any trendy new york underground fashion magazine...Proto-typical non-conformist. You are a vacuous soldier of the thrift store gastapo. You adhere to a set of standards and tastes that appear to be ( Read more... )

i don't want to be here. i don't want to be here. i don't want to be here. i don't want to be here. i hate this fucking place. i don't want to be here. i don't want to be here. i don't want to be here. i don't want to be here. i don't want to be here. i don't want to be here. i hate this fucking place. i don't want to be here. i don't want to be ( Read more... )

last night was...eventful. i should've seen this coming when i decided to hang out with four relatively shameless guys. haha. around 4.30 i went to dan's and picked him, mike, and ryan up. ryan kept asking to drive the car. like that was going to fucking happen. then i passed brendon's house once...or twice...i don't know. so we get to brendon's, ( Read more... )

He sings in English. He could sing in Swedish for all you care, and it would still sound the same. He's angsty voice carries from the bedside table into your unattentive ears. You lay on your large empty bed, staring at the white ceiling above you. It's late for you. You haven't kept your lights on this long in quite a while. Not since the summer. ( Read more... )

drama wasn't so bad. we sold 265 tickets all together ( Read more... )

It was in the march of the winter I turned 17 ( Read more... )

see, it's one thing to be ditched by friends - it's expected. but it's another thing entirly when it's your family - the one's who taught you the value of spending quality time together. yeah, they just took off. i saw them leave and it sucks because i woke up feeling really empty. but i should be used to it. they go out every saturday morning to ( Read more... )

i apologize to sean. i guess he got really worried when i didn't show up last night. it never occured to me that it happened this time last year. last year i skipped to end something; this year i skipped to finish something. now i realize the difference between ending and finishing. ananda asked about it. she was worried, then she told me i could ( Read more... )

i fucking hate drama. maybe it's because it's hell week, and hague's a bitch, and i really don't know my lines and tomorrow is our last real rehearsal. i'm not going tonight. i've got too much work to get done. that and my parents won't let me out of the house until my homeworks done. i don't know. maybe i'll go after dinner. hague will yell at me ( Read more... )