last night...oh gosh i needed last night. a chance to forget about stupid shit that i can't control. he hates when i do shit, be he's my reason this time. for an entire night (except when i talked to him) i forgot i knew him. i forgot he existed. and as much as that would hurt some one to hear, it felt so fucking nice ( Read more... )

i stayed home from school today, if any one noticed. and till 3pm i thought it was thursday. i'd have gone to school if i knew it was Friday. i've been so out of it lately, i've been off all week. i was so tired this morning, i couldn't see myself getting up and taking a shower at 5:30, especially since greg had me on the phone till 2:30am. so i ( Read more... )

"When there seems no way to find calmness in the storm you come and take me in your arms, and then the waves drown me no more"

offically an all time low. thats the worst thing you can say in a situation like that. calling me by her name....? i feel so intensly loved.

if you want me to take back what i said, i won't. i didn't explain ymself, you don't get it. try to be alittle more understanding in your critisizm. if you've got anything else to say, go gossip about it, don't fucking say anything to me ( Read more... )

What the fuck is wrong with me

some people suck. they're ruining it. ruining it becasue people can't keep their mouths shut. i was going to go to the skelletones, and hang out with jacob this weekend, and then i see some of these people that are going... and its ruined. i don't get why they couldn't just fucking stay out of it. its a scene, and its not in fremont for a reason. ( Read more... )

why does he make me feel so crappy, why do i let it get to me ( Read more... )

howdy yall ( Read more... )

friends list went from 64 to 26. isn't that interesting.