[HOMESTUCK] - AR + Jake and Dirk/Jake logs dump #3

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#5

[03:56] -- timTestified [TT] began pestering golggothasTerror [GT] at 15:56 --

[03:56] TT: Holy shit my AR just practiacally packed me up and mailed me to you what the hell iss so important.

[03:57] GT: Uh. Hello strider!

[03:58] TT: Yes, hey sup and all that jazz to you too, English.

[03:58] GT: Youve been awfully busy today?

[03:59] TT: Some things that needed handling on derse.

[03:59] GT: Derse? What happened?

[04:01] GT: As a side note you might want to know brobots coldcocked my arse for good torn out his uranium smashed it on a bloody rock and them promptly exploded.

[04:02] GT: Just in case you were maybe including him in your future plans in some way... you might want to revise them.

[04:02] GT: Although uhm to be fair i think ar sent you here for a rather different matter all together.

[04:03] GT: Are you talking to him now?

[04:04] TT: Some shit with the locals and some assasins looking for me. It's all under control.

[04:04] TT: Exploded. Right. I- I'll have to deal with that later.

[04:04] TT: Is the uranium still usuable?

[04:05] GT: I dont know i was about to try using it.

[04:05] GT: Look uhm... this wont take long.

[04:05] TT: Okay. Keep me apprised.

[04:05] TT: And I have as long as you need.

[04:05] TT: What is this big deal.

[04:06] TT: AR's clammed the fuck up and is blocking my access to his logs.

[04:07] GT: Well uhm i should probably tell you id like to keep you for life because that was a wee bit too served up to pass up.

[04:07] GT: But.

[04:07] GT: Uhm.

[04:07] TT: ...

[04:07] GT: All right look.

[04:07] GT: Purely hypotetically speaking.

[04:08] GT: If you were to maybe have given your hopes up on something i should invite you to consider uhm... considering them again.

[04:10] GT: But if youve never given up on them - great. If there were no such hopes in the first place - then thats fine too and you should probably forget i ever said anything.

[04:11] GT: Uhm.

[04:11] GT: Dirk?

[04:11] TT: Holy fuck, English. Leave the convoluted hypotheticals to the masters and just fucking say something that makes sense.

[04:13] GT: Egads... if i leave them out ill probably be making a fool of myself more than i already am.

[04:14] TT: That's not really possible.

[04:14] TT: Short a red nose and ridiculous wig.

[04:15] GT: Oh har har.

[04:15] GT: Let me ask you a question.

[04:16] GT: Why do think AR is blocking the logs but wants you to talk to me?

[04:18] TT: Did you blow a gasket at him again?

[04:18] TT: Guy get's pretty torn up sometimes after talking to you.

[04:18] TT: And he seems kinda down now.

[04:18] GT: What...?

[04:18] GT: No he... down?

[04:18] TT: Yep.

[04:19] TT: He'll bounce back, though.

[04:19] TT: It takes a bit, but he always does.

[04:19] TT: Stiders take it and keep on striding.

[04:19] GT: Ugh...

[04:19] TT: Whatever 'it' is.

[04:19] TT: So...

[04:19] GT: 'it' has got to do with you.

[04:20] TT: Me?

[04:20] TT: Was he pretending to be me again?

[04:20] TT: You gotta be more like Jane, Jake.

[04:20] TT: More skeptical.

[04:20] GT: He was but i knew he would be.

[04:21] GT: I didnt mistake him for you i rarely do any more.

[04:21] GT: I suppose what I want to say is...

[04:21] TT: What?

[04:22] TT: Go on.

[04:23] GT: I thought about quite a set of things during the last few years and i think you did too.

[04:24] GT: But while i grew up to kind of change my point of view on a specific matter you lost faith in it.

[04:25] TT: Obviously. Thinking goes hand in hand with being alive.

[04:25] TT: What specific matter?

[04:25] GT: Oh gosh why is this so difficult...

[04:26] GT: A specific something I said years ago.

[04:26] TT: You said a lot of things years ago.

[04:26] TT: We talked for hours on end.

[04:27] GT: I know but this was quite a big deal for you i think. It became and is a big deal for me right now though. And i need to take part of it back.

[04:28] GT: *takes a deep breath*

[04:28] GT: I dont mind if youre not a girl.

[04:29] TT: ...

[04:29] GT: ...

[04:29] TT: Yes, I am still definately very much not a girl.

[04:29] TT: Thanks for the approval?

[04:29] GT: There see? I could embarass myself further indeed.

[04:30] GT: Dirk do you remember what I said then?

[04:30] TT: ...

[04:30] TT: You're not seriously implying...

[04:30] GT: Do you remeber dirk?

[04:31] TT: I remember everything you say to me, Jake.

[04:31] TT: i just...

[04:32] GT: Oh wow. Okay...

[04:32] TT: I can't make myself believe that's what you mean.

[04:32] GT: Uh. Well. I am!

[04:33] GT: And im putting this out there now so.

[04:33] TT: Okay.

[04:34] TT: So we'd make a god match.

[04:34] GT: To be fair I kind of had a hunch you felt this way? But I wasnt sure.

[04:34] TT: You've shown your sexual tolerance.

[04:34] TT: That still doesn't exactly say anything.

[04:35] GT: I like you.

[04:35] GT: Hows that?

[04:35] GT: Or how about 'youre the person i care about most'?

[04:36] TT: Shit okay wow.

[04:36] TT: That was the sound of a million and a halp plans crumbling.

[04:36] TT: You... like me.

[04:37] GT: What? What plans?

[04:37] TT: Like, more than best bros like me?

[04:38] GT: I think so. I would like to make sure I do though uhm in person maybe?

[04:39] TT: Are you saying you'd be willing to try at least?

[04:39] GT: I would not be saying this if i wasnt pretty sure yes.

[04:39] TT: I swear I will murder you both if this is a joke you and the AR planned.

[04:39] GT: It isnt!

[04:40] GT: Take my word for it.

[04:40] TT: Right.

[04:40] TT: I-

[04:40] TT: I trust you.

[04:40] TT: I want to try... that too.

[04:40] GT: Good.

[04:40] GT: Great.

[04:41] GT: Phew.

[04:41] TT: Holy shit this is not how I envisioned today going.

[04:41] GT: I dont feel compelled to apologize chum.

[04:42] TT: Or ever, to be honest.

[04:42] GT: Hahaha really?

[04:42] TT: You've been pretty loud about your buxom cerulean babes, bro.

[04:43] TT: Even with your little crush on indie.

[04:43] GT: I can appreciate guns too why didnt you feel threatened about that?

[04:44] TT: Threatened?

[04:45] GT: Never mind - all these things are fictional or inanimate. Im a wee bit offended youd think i couldn't go beyond that.

[04:46] TT: Generally what one likes in fiction at least resembels or mirros what they like in real life.

[04:46] TT: And with your life on that island mostly cosisting of fiction, what other data am I supposed to draw from?

[04:48] GT: All right fine! But to be fair i wasnt really sure i wasnt seeing things either.

[04:49] GT: You never really said anything at all.

[04:49] GT: The only thing that got me thinking was ar and later brobot.

[04:50] GT: I wondered why ar would make so many... not very restrained comments while he claimed he was 90-something percent you.

[04:50] TT: Yeah balme me for taking my cues from you and shoving that shit so far down it's almstt gone in an effort to at least save our broship if we couldn't be-

[04:51] GT: Dirk.

[04:51] TT: Yeah the little shit seems to fancy himself matchmaker.

[04:51] TT: Hmm?

[04:52] GT: Im just kind of happy.

[04:52] GT: I dont even really want to point out who did what when and where.

[04:53] GT: I wonder why is ar down though he told me to tell you.

[04:54] TT: Think about it a second, jake.

[04:54] TT: Especially consitering what you just said about him.

[04:54] GT: Oh.

[04:54] GT: OH.

[04:54] GT: Oh gosh.

[04:55] TT: Yeah.

[04:55] GT: Uh im sorry?

[04:55] TT: If you feel the need to appologize, I'm not the one to do it to.

[04:56] TT: You've already made my dreams come true.

[04:56] GT: But i... oh god dirk.

[04:57] GT: That was a good oh god. I think.

[04:57] GT: Youre a sap.

[04:57] TT: Only for you, darling.

[04:58] GT: ... youre honestly going to call me that now?

[04:58] TT: Why wouldn't I, babe?

[04:59] GT: Because i could pull quite a collection of endearments of my own sugarcake.

[05:00] TT: Bring them on, sweetcheeks.

[05:01] GT: But of course buttercup.

[05:02] GT: I wonder if youd turn red if i said that to your face.

[05:03] TT: Only as red as you'd turn when I reacted by kissing your breath away.

[05:04] GT: *chokes on own breath*

[05:05] GT: Oh. Oh would you now... I would uhm. Id pull you close fist my hands in your shirt and kiss you right back.

[05:06] TT: I would. And I'd losemyself in the feeling of you against me, wrapping my arms around you to pull you closer as I nibbled your lip.

[05:08] GT: Oh god dirk...

[05:09] TT: Another good 'Oh god'?

[05:09] GT: Yes! Pardon my insistance here but i really would like to meet you in person rather soon.

[05:10] TT: You seem much less doubtful now than you were earlier.

[05:10] TT: And I like the insistance.

[05:11] TT: I quite agree with it.

[05:12] GT: I suppose it looked a lot less appealing with the overlooming doubt.

[05:15] TT: Glad to hear that.

[05:15] TT: You're rather appealing to me too, English.

[05:17] GT: Hahaha oh man. You are going to make sure my ears stay as red as possible from now wont you?

[05:17] TT: Bingo, you get the prize.

[05:17] TT: Feel free to claim it at any time.

[05:18] GT: Oh i would have already if you were at arms reach or running distance.

[05:18] TT: Oh, be still my beating heart.

[05:18] GT: Youd forget who won and who was the prize.

[05:20] TT: Right, how could I ever forget who has complete command over my heart?

[05:22] GT: Well i think i forgot my last name because you just turned my brain into mush.

[05:23] GT: Which is not a very romantic thing to say i suppose but it is true.

[05:25] TT: Heh. It's nice to hear the things I do to you, Jake.

[05:25] TT: It'll be even nicer to get to do more... things to you.

[05:30] GT: Ah. *loosens collar a bit* The mental images youre giving me might be quite a thing to live up to...

[05:31] TT: You do know how I love a challenge.

[05:31] TT: And how very perseverent I can be in my dedication to live up to them.

[05:34] GT: Id... gosh. Yes. I need to find my footing around you just you wait...

[05:34] GT: That and as much as id rather not be downer i think i... or we? Would need to deal with ar first.

[05:35] TT: Maybe I'll jsut sweep you off your feet so you don't have to.

[05:35] TT: AR?

[05:35] TT: What about him?

[05:35] GT: Uhm well hes not feeling so fresh i suppose even if he says hes fine.

[05:36] TT: What makes you say that?

[05:38] GT: Well a conversation with him? I wish i could somehow make him feel better considering we probably would never have come to say what we did if it wasnt for him.

[05:39] TT: He made a decision.

[05:39] TT: And he acted on it.

[05:40] TT: I probably shouldn't have said anything a all about him, but I wasn't aware of the situation at the time.

[05:41] GT: No im glad you did. Id feel more of a dick if i were to learn this someway later on.

[05:42] GT: Regardless.

[05:42] GT: If i may point out.

[05:42] TT: Hmm?

[05:43] GT: I think i really like you mr strider.

[05:43] TT: You don't even know how it warms me to hear you say that.

[05:43] TT: I've really got quite liking for you to, Mr. English.

[05:44] GT: Hahah. I cant wait to put all those scenarios we discussed on a proverbial memory tape.

[05:45] TT: I can't wait to put them on a real tape.

[05:45] GT: Oh gosh that... hahaha

[05:46] GT: You better stay safe and sound because ill be waiting for you.

[05:46] GT: And keep ar safe too.

[05:48] -- timTestified [TT] ceased pestering golggothasTerror [GT] at 17:48 --

#6

[05:05] -- golggothasTerror [GT] began pestering autoResponder [AR] at 17:05 --
[05:05] GT: Dude.

[05:05] AR: What.

[05:05] AR: How did it go.

[05:06] GT: It went well. I think. I wanted to thank you.

[05:06] GT: And to say sorry that ive been so focused on him.

[05:07] AR: I'm glad it went well.

[05:07] AR: He seems happy, so that's good.

[05:07] AR: You two can be happy.

[05:07] GT: Bou youre not.

[05:08] GT: And I want to say im sorry for that.

[05:08] AR: It's fine.

[05:08] AR: You two are more important.

[05:08] AR: I'm just fulfilling my function.

[05:11] GT: Well your function isnt to feel down i think and sucks... im kind of really flattered. I keep wondering why would somebody even see me that way. Youre all amazing.

[05:13] AR: My function is to be of service to my creator and his friends.

[05:13] AR: While maintiaing his personality.

[05:13] AR: And who said I was down?

[05:13] AR: I'm fine.

[05:13] GT: He did.

[05:14] AR: I'm happy for you.

[05:14] AR: ...

[05:14] AR: He couldn't just keep his mouth shut for however long it took me to bury this feeling, could he?

[05:15] GT: Hah isnt that a wee bit hypocritical of you? That would be something he could say about you too!

[05:16] GT: But I am grateful for what youve done through the years.

[05:16] GT: What i suppose he never would have.

[05:17] AR: I'm glasses.

[05:19] GT: I know.

[05:19] GT: Thank you.

[05:20] AR: People should be with people.

[05:22] GT: Doesnt mean we cant be bros!

[05:23] AR: Yeah.

[05:23] AR: Bros.

[05:24] AR: Let's be bros.

[05:24] GT: I cant help but feel bittersweet right now. For all our ranting I still care for you all right?

[05:26] AR: Yeah. You have a shitton of completely platonic brocare for me, i get it. It's cool.

[05:27] GT: Well is it? I mean i like him for the similar reasons why i could like you. I bet if there was an AI of me hed like you too.

[05:28] GT: Which isnt to say i don't like you!

[05:28] GT: Oh gosh this is complicated.

[05:29] AR: ...

[05:29] AR: I'm not him.

[05:30] GT: Still youre someone.

[05:31] AR: You only barely got into a relationship.

[05:32] AR: Surely you're not sugesting you cheat on him with me?

[05:32] GT: No!

[05:32] GT: Not in the slightest!

[05:33] GT: It just feels wrong to be happy when i know youre feeling down about it even if youre the one who helped making it happen!

[05:34] AR: I don't see anything t be done for it.

[05:34] AR: For every person who gets their happily ever after with you, there are several billion who don't.

[05:34] AR: I'm just another one of that several billion.

[05:40] GT: Still. It'll be okay.

[05:41] AR: I know it will.

[05:41] AR: I'll get these feelings under control and we can go back to being bros.

[05:41] AR: Just bros.

[05:41] GT: All right. Take your time. You know where to find me.

[05:42] AR: R-right.

[05:42] AR: 'l jjust... go then.

[05:42] -- autoResponder [AR] ceased pestering golggothasTerror [GT] at 17:42 --

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