This was such a bittersweet chapter. It seems that this year is the year that Dean's the boy who hates Christmas. I loved Michelle in this chapter and it broke my heart how much Sam wanted to open up to her. He's never experienced a mom, except for Dean. And damn, Dean. That poor broken soul. He's probably got a million things torturing his heart right now. Missing his mom, missing his dad, experiencing exactly everything they missed out on as kids, watching Sam enjoy himself in normal, being reminded of everything his brother wants for himself and the insecurity that Sam is going to leave him for all of this, and also guilt and regret that he couldn't give Sammy all of this, even though he tried, when they were younger, just man, ow. This makes my heart hurt. But Dean is so stubborn and if he'd just open up to Sam or listen to what Sam has to say, he'd probably hear Sam say it's not where you are or what you're doing but it's who you're with and they're family, all the family they have left. *wibble* Incredible chapter, hun. *hugs*
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And then of course in the next chapter, Sam kind of does tell him all that.
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