Sunny days ( Read more... )

While I appreciate the insights gained these CBT-like exercises are.. very tiring, very taxing. It's frightening, facing so many things head on, alone. The worst part is, it's likely too little too late. The marks against me in her book cannot be erased. The funny thing is, I never had a book to keep marks against anyone else. I always forget ( Read more... )

Today's session and homework was.. very helpful. I've gained a lot of insights about my own fears and anxiety, and how to, at the very least, identify them. I will get through this. I see the symptoms and I know what the causes are. I won't let it control me. That's not the person I want to be. That's not the person I am. I want to be my ( Read more... )

Dear N ( Read more... )

I want so much to talk to you right now, to try to contact you.

But I know you need your space, I know you need time.

This is very difficult for me, but I'll be patient. I'll prove to you that I can overcome my fears.

Was there really no other way ( Read more... )

Day 4 Part 5

Dear N,

Today we had dinner with Mom and Auntie one day early. Many other families were in the restaurant. It was alright. If I were a less picky eater, I may have enjoyed it more. I managed to eat all my food without throwing up and embarrassing everyone. I did okay.

Still much to think about.

Day 4 Part 4

Dear N,

I'm done my tasks for the day, I think. At least, what I promised to do. I want to take a nap, but I feel restless. There's so much to think about.

Day 4 Part 3 ( Read more... )

Day 4 Part 2 ( Read more... )