Well I went to breakfast with my parents this morning. It was nice. We talked and decided to put things behind us. They have decided to sell the house and move to New Hampshire because my father found a new job there. My girlfriend and I are treading rough waters. I don't know whats going to happen, or even what I want to happen. I do love her, but ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning to find that a vein exploded in my leg from the accident. Yuck. So now instead of having a bruise that was close to the size of a water melon, about 45% of my leg is now black and blue .... Other than that I need a job, to quit snoking, and yet I am still smiling. My friend Kroston and I are going to hang out today .... Yay !

and i love my cat tekkno

but i got my music, and thats what keeps me going

Listening to U2 ... " with or without you " ... i love this song, just depresses the hell right out of me .... i love my life in the sense that i have wonderful friends, i am alive, and i can smile ..... but i hate not having parents, i hate questioning love, i hate feeling alone, i hate not being confident, i hate not seeing my sis more, i miss ( Read more... )

It's been three days since the accident. I'm still very shaken up. I keep thinking to myself how more worse it could have been. I mean for God sakes, my buddy flipped his car and I sustained the same injuries as I would have back in the day when I was fooling around in parking lots riding in shopping carts. True, I was beaten up pretty bad, but the ( Read more... )

Why is it so difficult to escape depression. I have dealt with it all my life, I just wish I could find some way to let go. I guess being abused, molested, and being over weight usually doesn't build the foundation for a happy life, but day in and day out I try to tear through the feelings that bring sickness, anxiety, and sorrow. Some people ( Read more... )

Everyone kept telling us not to go ... but we refused to listen, we thought that we were invincible, we thought it wouldn't happen to us. That was until my best friend and I lost control in the snow flipped his car upside down into a ditch last night. When we both came to, we checked each other out and crawled out of the busted back window. Blood ( Read more... )

Voluntary insomnia is a terrible way to live. There is nothing harder on your body ( besides drugs ) then trying to train it to sleep during the day, then attempt to waken at night ( I am doing so for my third shift job ( Read more... )