there is a hole with my name on it. send mail there until i crawl out. i'd talk but it's the same story. i am adjusting to a life of being just me. not a wife. not a couple. in some ways it's nice, i get to do whatever i want, no questions asked. in another way it's devestating. but at least now i know i can survive anything.

same old same old.

ok, i wrote all this down in my seperation support group forum thingy, so it may sound slightly formal but it's such a damn long story that i can't tell it or write it out to each of you. it's exhausting. it will be exhausting to read probably ( Read more... )

(PS- H stands for husband and R stands for relationship ( Read more... )

nothings changing.
he doesn't even want tot alk to me outside of counseling. he stopped hugging me. he shows no emotion its like it doesn't matter to him at all. i am so sad. i wish i could call him but i know he wouldn't talk to me. sometimes i feel like i am going to bust into two.

I AM LACEY FUCKING GRAHAM AND NO MAN WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME!

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i am so miserable. everyday i wake up with the same pain and sadness and it stays with me all day and night. i want to give up. it seems like he just tossed me aside. and isn't going to ever look back. i can't get a hold of myself and stop asking the same questions over and over. he happily gave me his house key back and said he'd get his stuff ( Read more... )

it's about 1:00 am last night and i'm thinking about what mw415 said about ym goal of not talking about the R for two weeks was lofty cause in 24 hours from the last disasterous "talk" i wanted to call him again. so iuse the restroom before i get into bed and there's blood ( Read more... )

FUCK YOU YOU PUSSY ASS MOTHERFUCKER FOR MAKING ME A PROMISE A MILLION TIMES IN THIS LIFE JUST TO BREAK IT AS SOON AS YOU FUCKING FELT LIKE IT WAS "hard." POOR FUCKING YOU. FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT MAMA'S BOY FOR PUSHING SO HARD TO HAVE THE BABY SOONER AND REASSURING ME HOW GREAT IT WOULD BE AND HOW SUPPORTIVE YOU WOULD BE, THEN FUCKING ( Read more... )