It’s a hazy late-summer afternoon, the kind where the heat has finally broken and it’s not unbearable outside. There’s a small house amongst a row of similar structures, but this one stands out because it fits in too well. The yard is perfectly groomed, the grass too-green and trimmed, telltale signs of expensive care. There’s a swing-set standing ( Read more... )

I ran to long ( Read more... )

I'm lying on the couch at my father's house, watching snow come down in steady waves outside. It's a quarter of one and I can't sleep. I feel like a complete failure.

There really are no words for this moment, for what courses through my synapses. Emptiness and ennui are part of it, but neither fully encompasses the deadening of feelinginside. I'm ( Read more... )

So much to say but nothing is said ( Read more... )

Standing on the ground of a distant shore on a day far removed from now we shall meet again ( Read more... )

Brain's out of order, things aren't working right. Living with the constant feeling like I've forgotten something. Every step unsure.

Trying to appreciate the irony my life is fueled by. A reverse Occam's Razor: the most complicated situation is the most likely to be true. Laughing at myself is the only option. Laugh and hold on to nothing.

Choices, ( Read more... )

Nothing's changed much except the weather ( Read more... )

It is cold and so am I.

As Summer has given way to Autumn, so too has one phase of life given way to another. Three weeks ago I started a new job. Nothing glamorous, but it will keep a roof above my head and let me replinish the savings I lived off this Summer. There's the faint possibility of advancement, but at this time I'm simply glad to be ( Read more... )

There was a time where I was a man of ideals.

Now I am a man of ideas.

I am worthless.

Maybe someday when time has passed you will understand the things I do. I make little sense at times and I know it must be frustrating to endure. I can do little but offer a nod and the phrase, "time will tell." I can only be who I and what I am, and I know that you cannot see that sometimes. I simply must trust that the revelation will come to you ( Read more... )