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wow. where the f did respect and morality go?
NOBODY HAS IT.
first offense... random guy from hs that I barely ever talked to texts me and says he wants to hang out... I said I had plans but he could join if he wanted. he proceeded to say "okay I just wanna go on a date with you just you & me"
did you even f'n ask me? Don't I get that anymore? the option? seriously, what the actual fuck. I deleted his number. Don't know why I had it in the first place. Oh. He acted like a gentleman once and pushed a big girl away from me that was trying to throw her meat hooks at me. Anyway, deleted.
second offense. This guy mike honeycutt asked if I wanted to go watch his friend get drunk and sing karaoke. I was bored...and needed a break from thinking so I went. I had a beer and sat down. It was like an asshole convention. really. like 6 jerks from hs sat down. It was hard even listening to their conversation, throwing the word "bitch" & "cunt" out every other word. at some point I had to say "watch your mouth" tithe general group. & the skank bartender was like "yeah, you can't say cunt unless you have one!HARHARHAR" put some clothes on. you look like an idiot. okay let's get to the offense. While playing pool, mike kept saying I should stop smiling because I'm so cute. okay, corny empty compliments. he proceeded to try holding my hand. I stared at it for a second and looked at him with THE dullest expression & said "did you ask permission to do that?" so serious. he snatched his hand back and was like alright, dang I'm sorry. we went out to smoke & I finally got an opportunity to say that I just got out of a relationship with a girl because it had to do with conversation. after smoking, we went in to play more pool and I was still slowly sipping that beer. he said "kind of bothers me that you were with a girl. but I can look past it.."
...LOL.
there's nothing to look past, piece of shit. More assuming. If I'm really going to get this every time I try to find new friends or get out of the house, then it needs to stop. I can't even believe... the nerve.
I told him to take me home immediately after walking out of the bar. THEN???? This mother fucker leans over like he wants a kiss! LOL. I got out of that truck SO FAST. Before closing the door I was like "crossroads tomorrow right?" and slammed it while he was trying to ask why I got out so fast. I wanted to punch this kid. And I hate physical violence.
Knew he had to work during the time that me kor & dusty would be at crossroads if we even go. because he said so. So. that's not goin to happen again either. stupid fucker kept snapping pictures and posting them to fb and instagram too. Did you ask for that either? I'm not your girlfriend or best friend. don't try showing that shit off like we are.
god I am so sick of people. Really.
No respect.
It's not my fault I didn't want to be here. Even this place reminds me. The floor by the couch. Makes me want to vomit.
I had a small panic attack dropping that stuff off to her. Those things. Are the things that I held closest to my heart. All of it. I couldn't stand to look at any of them anymore. I had to give them to her so I can forget.
I want to forget.
& I am going to.