My hips, calves, butt, and feet are sore from overexertion of walking everywhere. My throat is dry. My nose is full of soot. My hair and overcoats reek of bonfire. I have slept on pavement, hardwood, couches, and palettes. I have lost my voice. I have woken up every morning or afternoon or evening and found a new bruise under my skin. There are six ( Read more... )

it's hard to separate the bullshitters and the quick-quitters from the ones who really care about me these days.

I blame it on karma. very misguided karma.

hey, by the way--
YOU haven't called me in almost a week.
YOU haven't called me to hang out all week either.
YOU ditched me last night.
and YOU HAVEN'T PAID ME YET YOU ASSHOLE ( Read more... )

I think part of staying sane is resisting the temptation to correct all of the insanity around you ( Read more... )

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people have disappointed me in so many ways the in the past 48 hours. I've been stressed, unappreciated, gypped, lied to, embarrassed, insulted, and driven to crying in a bathroom on the phone with my dad. I no longer feel a connection with anyone. everyone is a vague blur of ambiguous intentions, motives, and potential to disappoint before ( Read more... )

+ I'm usually friendly and pleasant, and constructively critical, but I just don't mind being disliked a little sometimes, ya know? My opinions may come off as apathetic or harsh at times, but I think being opinionated adds character ( Read more... )

so the hypothyroidism causes my immune system to be weaker, probably making me more susceptible to illness, especially in the winter, so I get ear infections rather often. Either those are in some way causing my jaw to pop or the TMJ (tetre-mandibular jaw disorder) is causing the ear infections, not totally sure. Anyway, my ears fill with fluid and ( Read more... )

FUCKya ever feel like that? like your heart is exploding into a mucus-green bubbled mass of flesh-eating acid sinking through a pit of quicksand grabbing at prematurely rooted plantlife nearby, hoping for the best of your mental well-being that you can elbow it up before your brain dissolves into a dense liquid from the indecisiveness and melts ( Read more... )

despite the freakishly indie cousin of a&f theme american apparel has with their headshot inclusive applications, style preference, and overpriced plain t-shirts and socks, I have to say, I want to own everything in there. so far, I own the following:


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