my mom told me that prozac makes you have suicidal thoughts
maybe that's why i feel like i want to die all the time

do not eat a bunch of cheddar
and a crunchy peanut butter clif bar
and expect to be able to take vicodin
it makes you puke like crazyyyyyyyyyy

plus:gritty food coming back up feels like crap

jesus christ
last night was crazy
if anyone has pictures
i want them
i need them
give them

i need to get back to cleaning
aiiiiiiight

this feeling
the constant cloud over my head

it's hopelessness
i feel like someone close to me has died
i feel uneasy
i feel awkward
i'd rather not feel at all
than feel like this

i'm back 'home'
i wish i was an anorexic mermaid with a foul mouth

this place is treating me well.

i miss someone.

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i hate myself for being so awkward
bianca thinks it could be considered 'cute'
i'll have to disagree with her on this one

i should not be allowed to watch sad movies
or sad anything for that matter
balling your eyes out in front of people
to the point where you almost puke
is not becoming
and they usually just think i am weird

:)

p.s.
i want a big gold locket on a long chain with:
a. my name on it
b. my last name on it

i'll probably buy that for myself

i'm embarassed...

so, i come home in a week
(well now 6 days)
i'm having a birthday party the friday after my bday
whichever day that is i don't know
i hope people come
i wish i was turning 21 not 20
oh god i'm such a disaster

p.s.
i don't like when people fight