A big, big love. all is well. I'll be a cali girl in a few months. everything will fall into place. I'm following my heart, and it wont show me the big picture yet, but I believe. and that's all you need. Hearts are being opened to me and I receive them. It's such a blessing to have warm hearts around you. Struggling too if they be, believers are ( Read more... )

So I'm moving to California. For real. I'm moving out of my house in Akron within the next few weeks and in with my brother. I'm going to sell all my stuff and save lots and lots of money. I'm going on vacations from June on and I am so excited. Life is opening up before my eyes. The world is truly mine. I'm creating.

I'm moving to San Francisco. I've been instructed to write down a to-do list and things that just have to happen to enable this to happen. I'm going to make a hard copy later and let it unfold but it's on my mind right now ( Read more... )

I feel like I should write right now and I hope the writing about comes about right now because I've thought nothing to write about ( Read more... )

So perhaps a habit is an insecurity... or an action created or started to soothe an insecurity. What in the world? I mean this makes so much sense... well here's the thing. I like things that make sense. A lot. I don't like things that make sense that make me look at the things I'm doing and the reason I'm doing them. I'm so glad I just cracked ( Read more... )

I sit around wasting time, wasting so much time... time I could spend doing what? I have hopes and dreams and now I have this CALIFORNIA dream... and it's looking so sweet. I would have the right minds around me, I think. You never really know. You would think I could straighten my mind enough to old my head high and be confident in my decisions. ( Read more... )

There are really a few of them I'd like to get rid of. I would like to do more of this. I don't know why I mull for so long and procrastinate. I go in spurts between extremely proactive and just not giving a shit. I could find a balance. I've been wanting that for a while. I just have an imagination that needs a little coaxing and a little guidance ( Read more... )

So it's been almost a year since I last posted here. I understand I'm the only person that reads this but I was going through these old entries and I'm really glad I keep this shit around. Honestly, I'm winning at life. I can't think of a better place I could be right now. I really want more money, I'm still waiting for that break through but baby ( Read more... )

What the fuck am I doing? I'm gonna sit here, and I'm gonna go out there, and I am just gonna wait. However long it takes. I don't have anything to lose. I don't want a man to tell me I was already lost before he found me. This is all coming out of a song, but it made me think. About the ridiculous rush. There's no such thing. I want this and this ( Read more... )

I want so much. I want to change my life so much. I feel like I'm in eternal waiting. I think I'm thinking too much and not doing enough. But I also feel like the moves I want to make require alot of thinking through before you start whipping around like a maniac with no specific destination. March IS a month of transition. I'm sick of being at ( Read more... )