so. to quote alex, "this wasn't supposed to happen."

lately, everything has been shitty.

i love you alex. i fucking miss you.

and i cried. when he sang, "love is watching someone die..." so who's gonna watch you die?

i fucking love ben gibbard. i fucking love new death cab. "plans" is fucking beautiful. my favorite tracks are "summer skin", "i will follow you into the dark", "someday you will be loved", and "what sarah said". fucking amazingplease. everyone. go listen ( Read more... )

i almost forgot to post this. it was the only good thing about school this week ( Read more... )

the used was tonight. i touched jared leto's thigh. some guy proposed to his girl. and i cried.

dani calls me "darling" everyday afterschool. when i stumble out of her car towards my front door. i do indeed like car rides with her.

and sammi is burning me... DEATH CABS NEW SHIT. wait. it's not shit. it's... AGREEABLE SOUND. hah.

awesome. now i have to go work on my dramatic english paper.

alex and i have been together one month. ♥ but uh. why does it feel like it's been soooo much longer? but it's not like that's a bad thing. I DON'T HATE IT!!! haha. ... i think it feels longer because we never stopped wanting each other.

i've been extra sensitive, and really bitchy towards him lately. i've been letting little things get to me. i' ( Read more... )

my trip to the doctor was okay. i was informed that i still have 20/20 vision. and that i'm done growing, height-wise. that's awesome. then another nurse stuck a needle in me and i found that my blood is a beautiful color. then i was told to pee in a cup. and for someone who was doing that for the first time, and does not pee standing up, i was ( Read more... )

"If you really want to hurt your parents and you don't have nerve enough to be homosexual, the least you can do is go into the arts." - Kurt Vonnegutalex, who is leaving for UTSA soon, sent that to sara. and sara sent it to me. and instead of copying and pasting to 932849328 people on my buddy list, i thought i'd place it here ( Read more... )

i start school on wednesday. which is in like, 3 days. uhm. and i plan on wearing my mr. electric shirt. duh. i'm a goddamn devoted fan. shiiiiit. thuggin'.

uhm. i almost forgot. alex and i are starting a band. he's on drums. i'm on keyboard. mmhm. i believe it will be called...

THE FITTING ROOM!!!iunno. unless we come up with a better name ( Read more... )

uhm. so i'm at my dad's. and we had this conversation last night ( Read more... )