it's true, that changes are no good and for the most part inevitable. but, even so, some things always remain the same. and its that familiar feeling, that comfort, that reminds us, eventually, you can overcome anything (provided you actually want to).
now, instead of ending on that somewhat pleasant note...
before i say anything remotely significant (as if i ever do anyway), let me explain two things. firstly, although no one has ever mentioned it i'm sure someone has noticed my unique comma placing style. i realize they dont belong in the majority of places i put them, but its for effect. and secondly...
julian casablancas, is still, hot shit. it makes me smile, and as much as i hate that, somewhere, i guess i appreciate the fact that in spite of everything, i'm still capable of pseudo-happiness.
thanks- for today, for everything.
anyway, with that said, i'd like to share a little 1984 with you... as always, because i think helping you understand me will make things easier, even though, i know, it wont.
To know and not to know, to be conscious of complete truthfulness while telling carefully constructed lies, to hold simultaneously two opinions which [cancel] out, knowing them to be contradictory and believing in both of them, to use logic against logic, to repudiate morality while laying claim to it... to forget, whatever it was necessary to forget, then to draw it back into memory again at the moment when it was needed, and then promptly to forget it again, and above all, to apply the same process to the process itself- that was the ultimate subtlety: consciously to induce unconsciousness, and then, once again, to become unconscious of the act of hypnosis you had just performed. Even to understand the word "doublethink" involved the use of doublethink. (32-33).
In our society, those who have the best knowledge of what is happening are also those who are furthest from seeing the world as it is. In general, the greater the understanding, the greater the delusion: the more intelligent, the less sane. (177)