The less you change the more you feel

[____desperado]

Tonight has made me realize something and made me contemplate somethings. Many people I consider friends are celebrating birthdays and getting drunk and merry. I hope they have a good time. One reason why I didn't go was because of my own self-consciousness. I didn't feel wanted or accepted. I felt like people just talk to me because I am the

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[toxictrip]

When it comes to therapy if you dont feel comfertable with the therapist then there really is no point in going. Or well that has been my finding on the matter.. But when it comes to people just being nice because its easier to be nice then to start conflict I do know how you feel iv felt that way many times in my life. Its an annoying little thing that never truly goes away, but kind of comes and goes in waves.

Anyways iv missed you its been to long since the last time we talker or hung out.

[____desperado]

Call me sometime, we can go do something.

[toxictrip]

Will do. =)

[cloverxluck]

wow is the best medicine for social scrutiny... trust me, i left the scene for like 2 months straight and by the time i got back, everyone changed and it was mostly merry again.

gl with your inner demons

[polish_mofo]

I'm so glad you wrote a detailed entry rather than just being completely vague, as always.

It's good to know how you feel.

[tacitarayne]

Sadly, being out at college makes those unsure feelings grow stonger. However, it's the easiest way to figure who your friends really are. The people who say hi to be nice won't call. It's hard at first, but it's easy to get over.

Car wrecks are scary.

It's good to do what makes you happy, but don't think too much about "simpler times." In 5 years, you'll look back at now and think about how simple it was.

Paranoia is natural and understandable. It's why I never write in this thing.

You cant see yourself growing up. It's sad, but true.

I didn't know our families moved to GA at the same time.

After I graduate from Oxford I'll be a little closer to being able to provide therapy for people. I think that's what I want to do. I just hope that no one I try to help feels like they're being judged.

I didn't like you when I first met you. I blamed you for all the changes going on in Alex I didn't like. Turns out he was just growing up. Also turns out you're pretty cool.

First impressions suck.

[____desperado]

I assumed you didn't like me at all till the golf course when you offered me a drink. It should happen again, it was fun.

Yeah I am not southern born actually.

How is oxford going?

[tacitarayne]

That sounds about right.

Yeah, you seem too intelligent to have been southern born.

Oxford isn't going at all. We've all fallen back into routines which...isn't bad. This weekend has been crazy, just because we've done things that usually involve the consumption of alcohol, but we're all sober. (such as running around the quad in our underwear) I think I got sick though.

And come my spring break, I'm sure there will be more golf course activities. March, yo.

[tragedy_scene]

Yeah, you seem too intelligent to have been southern born.

Not cool...I'm gonna need to hunt you down.

Sorry adam you are not aloud to be friends with this person

[tragedy_scene]

So maybe I can't help you with feeling accepted or your inner demons. but I know that if you had come to the party last night you could have taken a fully clothed shower with two sexy men by the names of patrick dye and todd jones.

Yeah you missed the man love, but it's all good.

We'll def chill before I leave...I'm pretty free most of the week, maybe another chipotle excursion is in order

[itslifesaidshe]

you're such a homosexual.

anyways, feel better adam
lets hang out soon (and i'm not just saying that because i'm just being "nice")
you already know i'm not nice
haha
<3