Sometimes there's not an explanation. This is one of those times. It's not a hate or anything, it's just an unexplainable thing that happens. Honestly. And it's more annoying to skirt around the issue than to just talk about it, just so you know, and if saying that you're pathetic is what you really think, it seems like you have some self-esteem problems, unless us not being friends anymore bothers you so much it's driven you to depression or whatever. I hope not. I'm not trying to get revenge ot make you sad. It just happens. Really. It sucks on a lot of levels, but it's part of life. Sorry if it hurts you.
Well its basically just the fact that we used to be wicked close/good friends and then almost randomly one day you just drop it like it didn't even mean anything, without even saying anything and basically just ignore that I exist. Which sucks alot. And I didn't think you were trying to get revenge on me, I'm not sure what you'd have to get revenge on me for anyway
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Sometimes I don't think people realize the results of their actions. Like growing apart from a friend without really meaning to. And it bothers the other people to no ends. It just plan sucks.
I also don't mean to turn this to me. But it just brings up inner feelings. And I need to get this out. In a way I feel what you do. But only I'm you and your Jayne here. I feel as if you don't like me anymore. I remember talking on the phone all the time and on AIM. We where close considering we don't really know each other and it just plan hurts. In basic terms. I miss you. And I know I've been a jerk in the past and I probably deserve this. But that doesn't ease the pain.
I definitely didn't start going out with Andy and make a conscious decision to "drop Blair" or anything. And I'm an awkward person, so ignoring you was the only thing I could even let myself do, because I don't like pretending that I am enjoying myself or whatever when I'm not. And when it's like that, when I'm really just kind of distanced (can I stress again that my MIND made this happen, not me?), I'm not gonna set up a time to hang out just to make you feel good about what's happening. I do think about how it is for the other person... I'm well aware that it probably sucks a huge dick. I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad or make fun of anyone, but when I just grow apart from a friend there's nothing to do about that to make you happy. I can't think of anything. And it's nice of your mom to want you to have me as a good friend, but she basically came over here trying to set us up together, and that's kind of awkward too. I hate awkward, you hate awkward, and it doesn't seem like there's any compromise to that. :(
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you're not pathetic or annoying. So just stop saying you are.
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I don't mean to bud in.... but...
Sometimes I don't think people realize the results of their actions. Like growing apart from a friend without really meaning to. And it bothers the other people to no ends. It just plan sucks.
I also don't mean to turn this to me. But it just brings up inner feelings. And I need to get this out. In a way I feel what you do. But only I'm you and your Jayne here. I feel as if you don't like me anymore. I remember talking on the phone all the time and on AIM. We where close considering we don't really know each other and it just plan hurts. In basic terms. I miss you. And I know I've been a jerk in the past and I probably deserve this. But that doesn't ease the pain.
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