i juat cried the most amazing cry and took the most incredible shower and i am going to be okay.

18 months just don't go away.

thank you for loving me...friend =)

um so tomorrow i'm being a mime again at a store opening in spring lake.
with my friend erin levine, no less =)

oh and i like a boy and things are gonna happen.

eeeee!

night night.

things between mike and i have no name.
we don't fit into a specific, pre-set mold.
and i like it that way.

names and words just make feelings and experiences more tangible and familiar.
and i've(we've) decided to let them be mysterious and enigmatic, as life and love  should be.

though it does pain me to leave some feelings floating around,
those which ( Read more... )

I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
Perhaps it's just imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away

Alone between the sheets
Only brings ( Read more... )

i give up.

with people, that is.

i'll just write college essays and watch scrubs until i can't feel feelings anymore.

yayayayayayayyayayayayayayyayayayayayyayyayayayay

college applications submitted:

Fordham
Drew
Fairfield
DePaul

and Comman Apps for Bennginton and UDel

ALMOST DONE WITH YOU BITCH-HOS(sp?)

I’m going to be honest with myself about what i want to do with my life ( Read more... )

=( sometimes i shouldn't say words.

on a brighter note, HOW GOOD WAS LAST NIGHT? AND HOW AMAZING WILL TONIGHT BE?

the show that is.
so see it if you haven't

8pm BSA 8 bucks for students and 10 for adults.

lolololololololololololololoolololololoolo
you don't even know chinese!

so my ride, mike davis, stayed home sick today and never told me
so as a result, hehe, i only had one legit day of school today.

and now i'm sitting here, in my senior fleece and CBA sweatpants listening to the Benny Hill theme song AKA Yakety Sax over and over again.

it is both a bad acid trip and a good summary of my life right now.
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oh please ( Read more... )