I always thought my heart was in Milwaukee, but now that I'm back to the Midwest I feel otherwise. I definitely feel the need to "start over" throughout every aspect in my life at this point. my mistakes are piling up and I'm beginning to feel childish for the first time in my life. The pieces to the puzzle are mingling together and I can only ( Read more... )

Time has passed at a fierce pace, I thought I'd lead myself to victory. Instead, I subconsciously followed my footsteps to where I started. Today, I think I finally escaped this year-long haze and I think I may be on my way to my official journey. It is so incredible how life truly is, once I learned that years ago, life has and will never be ( Read more... )

no, I don't give a fuck what you think. I will be an adult in less than a month, and I have many more responsibilities to take on, or maybe I don't. I'm planning to live my life differently. As for right now, I am absolutely fucked because I owe a lot of money for ignorant mistakes i made. I will deal with it though, and fix it in a timely ( Read more... )

You know what's a bitch, I also blew .07 for a breathalizer tonight, honestly greenfield cops can please lick my ass after a juicy loaf because honestly i just wanted to get home tonight, regardless of rain or distance. Here I am though, another ticket added to the pile and I cannot blame anyone or any of the circumstances because I put myself in ( Read more... )

This year continues to get more and more ridiculous as time goes by. Besides that, every day is an obstacle course, especially when it comes to my 'mother' being drunk. I remember when it used to really concern me, her alcoholism, but it's gotten to the point that her case has passed hopeless and there is absolutely nothing I can do. Most of the ( Read more... )

this time of the year keeps me alive, I swear. life is a constant learning experience for me and I couldn't ask for more. for the most part, nothing is changed. all of my "old friends" took the typical route, but i'm still continuing my search for greater things.

I just want it to be summer, so I can walk everywhere I go. I saw Dead to Fall for the first time in a WHILE last night and it was incredible as usual. My haircut is disgusting and my complexion has gone to shit. I feel like a man and I want to go shopping. I'm watching the sky and letting the sun burn my eyeballs until the snow has melted away ( Read more... )

Alright let me get fucking real right now, it is pretty idiotic to barf all of this out on a livejournal entry, but I don't exactly have anyone to talk to so it is the best I can do. I am 17 years old, and I will be 18 in 7 months as of tomorrow, I am lost, I am scared, I am graduated, I don't know where to go, I know I am capable of anything but ( Read more... )

So much has changed since I've last posted up on here, but hopefully I can reach out to some people I haven't spoken to in a while. I left July 19th to experience the academy life..5 AM wake up, strict rules, no boys, no caffiene, drugs, liquor or sex. I left without self-respect, self-confidence, or anything valuable to me. I was isolating ( Read more... )

i still haven't heard from any friends all year. i miss my "life" in some ways but i'm more concerned about building something that will help me get further in the future. me and my boy fell in love so quickly and beautifully and just how i knew it would happen months and years ago. the world is hypnotized by cyberspace, money and narcissism. ( Read more... )