it would be just nice if you would talk to me once in a while. there was a point in time where i was your life, and you were mine. and it's not even that i have to hang out with you every week. it would just be nice to talk to you maybe once a week. i couldn't even tell you the last time we had a conversation. you have been my BEST friend for over a year. more than that. you know that we had more than that. and i just feel like you've tossed it all out the window. you haven't made an effort to even talk to me in over a month. i feel neglected. and i know that you and nick live together. but you know that i don't mind hanging out with the two of you. i just can't believe after everything we've been through that you've pushed me away like you have. it makes me mad, and really upset. you said you couldn't live without me, but apparently you can. everytime i said you were my BEST friend, ever, i meant it. i meant every word i ever said to you. remember the night when we were all fucked up and thought we were going to die? this summer. and
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how could you be a wasting my time? i love you ash no matter what & no matter how many friends we go through you'll remain my bestfriend. you are like family to me. no one could replace you.
Everyone has been thru something in their life. I'm happy you have a steady boyfriend. I never said I wasnt your friend. and age doesnt matter. What matters most is how one deals with things, how one fights, their strength. My lj entry was an in general thing. At first, I thought you disliked me. and i did overreact. I let things get to me sometimes. i'm sorry.
i dont care what anyone says to me. i didnt do anything wrong. you say you thought i disliked you.. maybe its the other way around because you totally lashed out on me in your journal. im not stupid. i know what it was about. im not going to apologize to anyone for doing what makes me happy. NO ONE has been there for me like nick has. not one person. so if anyone is going to be pissed off at me so be it. & if me doing something that simple makes anyone that angry with me then im not interested in having friends anyway. im sick of drama. im sick of bullshit. so i gave up. i have more important things going on in my life. & yeah age DOES matter. im on a totally different level then most of the people im friends with.
you totally have me all wrong. but ok. i write how i feel. i dont hold back. and i like to think that i am on a different level as well. like i said, i'm glad nick has been there for you. i was just upset cos others were. i dont like seeing ppl like that. but ok. i'm done. ps- i repeat. that entry was an IN GENERAL thing. I was rambling. and give me credit, for writing how i feel. when the majority of, would be too pussy to.
gianan dont be ridiculous. you have been there for me always. you've done so much for me. you have my heart. period. you're one of my best & thats not changing. i still talk to you all the time silly. like everyday almost. shush. i love you.
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We all over-react nowadays.
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i love you ash no matter what & no matter how many friends we go through you'll remain my bestfriend. you are like family to me. no one could replace you.
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i love you very much
AND i don't care that you are married.
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I'm happy you have a steady boyfriend.
I never said I wasnt your friend.
and age doesnt matter.
What matters most is how one deals with things, how one fights, their strength.
My lj entry was an in general thing.
At first, I thought you disliked me.
and i did overreact.
I let things get to me sometimes.
i'm sorry.
but that probably isnt good enough.
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i didnt do anything wrong.
you say you thought i disliked you..
maybe its the other way around because you totally lashed out on me in your journal.
im not stupid. i know what it was about.
im not going to apologize to anyone for doing what makes me happy.
NO ONE has been there for me like nick has.
not one person.
so if anyone is going to be pissed off at me so be it.
& if me doing something that simple makes anyone that angry with me then im not interested in having friends anyway.
im sick of drama. im sick of bullshit.
so i gave up. i have more important things going on in my life.
& yeah age DOES matter.
im on a totally different level then most of the people im friends with.
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but ok.
i write how i feel.
i dont hold back.
and i like to think that i am on a different level as well.
like i said, i'm glad nick has been there for you.
i was just upset cos others were. i dont like seeing ppl like that.
but ok.
i'm done.
ps-
i repeat. that entry was an IN GENERAL thing.
I was rambling.
and give me credit, for writing how i feel.
when the majority of, would be too pussy to.
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i understand this.
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You guys belong together.
I have to disagree with you
when you say you've been through more
than everyone put together.
I know for a fact I have you beat there.
But ohk...
& I hope you don't shut out contact with me.
B/c I'm not sure I did anything wrong.
I still luff you like woah.
No matter what.
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you have been there for me always.
you've done so much for me.
you have my heart. period.
you're one of my best & thats not changing.
i still talk to you all the time silly.
like everyday almost.
shush.
i love you.
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I was scurred for a minute.
Love you tooo!!!
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