so I made new friends, that don't treat me like shit, and now my old friends are jealous and upset and realize that I was good to them and they didn't return any of that homie love. Hopefully now they'll see though, everybody has a breaking point.

my old friends are just mad that I'm happier than they are.


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So fuck it, I'm so incredibly down and out I could fucking shoot myself with a 22. But I dont have one. It's not just me either, everyone's life is so messed up right now, I'm sure half the people in the world feel the same way. I say we do it. Bang, right in the fucking face, at least it would be over, right ( Read more... )

So much for laying off the powder, huh? I decided as long as I'm not paying for it, and I'm getting money and drugs at the same time, it's okay ( Read more... )

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So I realized sometime last week that I'm addicted to cocaine. Having determined such a thing, I decided I'd try my hand at quitting. Kick the habit, all on my own. I've marked these past four days, they've been long and hard. They've kicked my ass. Physically, I've been sick, mentally I've been adrift, bereft, distraught, and disconnected. I need ( Read more... )

It's technically not yet winter, but I don't think I can bear much more of this cold. Every morning it's ten or fifteen degrees if we're lucky. We live on the east side of the Salt Lake Valley, and the eastern mountains block the sun from shining on us until 8:30 or so. By noon I'm no longer freezing, even though it doesn't get hotter than 35. ( Read more... )

Here in Sandy, the air's freezing, two minutes outide and your fingers go numb. The mountains have a four foot base of snow and there has been plenty of fresh powder and blow. I've been trying to keep my nose clean, but when you have a bunch of money, and nothing better to do, you can't help but buy tons of eight balls and snort your brains out ( Read more... )

It's days like these that make me wish I was with you, because I hate all my friends here and I need something real, something more than this. It's like everybody thinks this is a joke, so they fuck over everyone they can and do whatever they want, they hurt your feelings, take your money, smoke your pot, and then bitch at you when you don't give ( Read more... )

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I got suspended for 45 days. My charges, for which I will appear in front of juvenile court on October 25, include possession of a controlled substance, possession of paraphernalia, and possession of tobacco under the age of 19. In other words, I have no school until November 22 and until then all I'm going to do is work and party ( Read more... )