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i had the notion that you'd make me change my ways, and my bad habits would be gone in a matter of days. i had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes, to a whole new world that has since been in disguise. but that day will most likely never come for me, and it's just my luck to end up getting stuck to everything you are. so tonight i'll sit and pick apart your pictures, and over analyze your words, cause the truth is i've never fallen so hard. it's taking everything in me just to forget your sweater so far. i had the notion that notion that you'd make me forget the world. but your undecisive mind shows me that you are "just another girl", i had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real, what if i ripped your heart apart at the seams maybe then you'd know how i feel. but that day will most likely never come for me, and it's just my luck to end up getting stuck to everything you are. so tonight i'll sit and pick apart your pictures, and overanalyze your words. but the truth is i've never fallen so hard, it's taken everything in me just to forget your sweater so far. and i can honestly say, that i've never, ever, ever felt this way. your lips, your eyelashes, your skin, these are the parts of your body that cause my comatose to begin. and i can honestly say, that i never, ever, ever felt this way. your lips, your eyelashes, your skin, these are the parts of your body that cause my comatose to begin. i will sleep another day, i dont really need to anyway, but what's the point when my dreams are infected with all the words you used to say. i will breathe in a moment, as long as i keep my distance, i wouldn't want to go messing anything up. so dont go worrying about me, it's not like i think about you constantly. so maybe i do, but that shouldnt affect your life anymore. i knew it the moment you walked into the door. so don't go worrying about me, it's not like i think about this constantly, so maybe i do, but that shouldn't affect your life anymore, i knew it the moment you walked into the door. and i'll let you get the best of me, cause there's nothing else that i do well. i'll let you get the best of me, cause there's nothing else that i do well. i'll be the giver and you'll be the taker. i guess that's how this one's gonna go, i'll be the giver and you'll be the taker. you've got me down on my knees and i'll proclaim, all hail the heartbreaker.
now that we're one now, softly, whisper, saving grace. 6:19 as awake. and stronger than last year, my eyes closed. stars can see me. stars will meet me on the ground, on the ground. summer is gone and winter is never too far now. and my poor arms (my arms are aching) outstretched so long that my bones are now breaking, but there you come with a smile that'd send any man to his knees, and i feel i've begun now that we're one now. you graciously add to, i graciously add you to my heart, to my heart. summer is gone, and winter is never too far now. and my poor arms (my arms are aching) outstretched so long that my bones are now breaking, but there you come with a smile that'd send any man to his knees, and i feel i've begun now that we're one now, now that we're one now.
i felt you slip away, far away from me, further from me, you seem to drift far away. i caught myself wishing you back, as i fight to catch you. anger wells inside me. i see me, frowning, in your eyes (i see the fear in you where none should ever be, i find myself striving to catch you from.. this will hurt me less and less everytime until i feel nothing) i see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone. anger wells inside of me. i see me, frowning in your eyes. slip away, far away from me, further from me, you seem to drift far away. i caught myself wishing you back as i strive for you. she said, "it's not that i don't love you anymore, but it would be so much more accurate to say, i never loved you in the first place." never in the first place. i put the fear in you where none should ever be. nothing to me, everything to you. nothing to me, everything to you. i can't take it anymore, when i'm with you i feel like i'm nothing. i feel like i'm nothing. that's why i flinch when you come and touch me, that's why i never touch you, why i never even think about you. because when i start to, it just reminds me that i'm not good enough. you're nothing to me.
we drove down reseda, in the car as i took you home, listened to love songs on the radio, i bought all those records, just so i'll remember you, in the arms of someone new. tell me that you felt this too, tell me that you felt this too. it's nights like this i feel alive, when every sentence i make is a promise, holding arms up to the sky, like every breath that i'm taking is perfect. we woke up to feelings, painted grass, and ringing phones, and a brand new song on the radio. spinning worn out records, every word pertains to you, believing every line was true. it's nights like this i feel alive, when every word that i say comes out perfect, watch my fingers touch my smile, and every breath that i'm taking is worth it. and i've lived out my whole life, to feel the way i did that night. these arms are so open tonight. it's nights like this i feel alive, when every breath that we're taking is perfect, a million stars light up the sky, and every day of our lives are now worth it, we're so worth it.