i want to go underwear shopping. i want a clean bathtub. i want my room to be spotless. i want my sketchbook to be full. i want anything caffinated from starbucks. i want straight hair. i want to play ping pong. i want blueberry pancakes for breakfast. i want it to be saturday all over again (minus the part of my mom walking in on me and matt.) i ( Read more... )

i have a new crush (AH!)

details later.
( when everything becomes official )

this is so dumb of me

edit/ it's official*.! /edit

i was happy today
( the proof )

so i'm no longer writing... anything, a notebook and pen don't bandage enough of me. fuck if i'd have a bible. if i was a sucker for cigarettes & vodka this is where i'd say that they've taken my days over, but sadly i've come to realization that soft lips are my only cure. so i'm just going to wait.

i hate looking at you in the eye by mistake.

-think again, thats not to who you had in mind

_____nothanks

_____nothanks
_____nothanks
_____nothanks
_____nothanks
_____nothanks

and i will add you back

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to allow comments or not to..

ok allow.

i can't even explain myself anymore
this is so fucking pathetic of me

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i thought being numb would work. i could go a couple weeks at a time without feeling a thing, when in reality, i just feel more. all my emotions poured into one big pitcher with SOUR written on the side. i am sick of feeling like this. my heart hardly beats and when it does it sinks deeper.. and deeper.. and deeper. i just want it to be totally ( Read more... )