I lost myself in an effort to satisfy a whim and track a forgotten number back through my old myspace comments today. It was like reading an old Christmas card left lying long forgotten under the bed or your high school yearbook, without the old fashion commodity of a paper trail lending its sentiment. Cellophane well wishers mixed with flings and ( Read more... )

I think you thought I was in love with you that night. I was teasing you about some girl, and you fixed your eyes on mine and I saw it, that look. The words rolled off your tongue and out your eyeballs, directly into mine. That was the moment which I knew it would be too late to hide because all possible cover was blown. One -two blinks- and ( Read more... )

Oh yeah, I mentioned that I'm moving tomorrow...

Today I saw a student of the month sign on someone’s lawn, the type of sign that usually says Vote for Whomever, or Open House, but this one read “My Child is a Student of the Month.” Five minutes previous, I was walking down the sidewalk, gingerly skimming the pages of a new book, warm and disillusioned in my ripened world where only panjandrum's ( Read more... )

This morning I woke to screams. Yet no one within visible range was dying, hurt, angry, animal, vegetable, mineral, awake. A sound without source, it was all in my head, the strident tonality of a dream which I am besiege by long after waking. It is not driving me mad, but pushing me on. I want this sound inside of me, I want my ears to ring, my ( Read more... )

I pray to fall and hit my head, nab my chance and surrender to somnolence by dropping into a coma. I, also, pray for my brain to then remain intact, for the impact to simply lull me into temporary hibernation. Big things are doubling on the horizon: house payments, work, telephone bills, work, relinquishing of beloved pets, work work, work. If I ( Read more... )

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I feel beautiful, confusing daydreams with lighttime, banking my losses with the knowledge that the future is approaching at hypersonic speed, and with it ascends salvation of the spirit and mind. I fly through obstruction, replant the pavement with beckoning fields, sleep in trees, meet people I never knew, and banish embarrassment and ( Read more... )

My work has become a breeding ground of ridiculous annoyances. Smells, age, bad taste, obesity, these are things I don’t have patience for. Blood, physical deformities, psychological disorders, chromatic vomit- these offer a refreshing break from the germicidal corner which I’m restricted to, when not visiting rooms. They're responsible for an ( Read more... )

Eyes open, every single cell stirring and super charged, exuding atomic potency, swelling with absolute capability to restore myself back to sanctum, the stark tenacity of my verve is paramount. I’m going to write and write, till the ink leaves stains, hemorrhages black and blue, blending every bruise ever acquired or earned. I’ll be that travel ( Read more... )