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well my "birthday weekend" sucked.
but my actual birthday rocked.
unexpected 1/2 cus of the snow
friends baked me a cake!
mom baked me a cake
ate at baraci
got a hello kitty coffee maker for my room!
fuckkkkkkin rockes
makes good coffee too.

cat just arrived at the inn
we're going to make tea
good bye all.

tomorrow is my brithday.
yes, i will be 17.
at approx. 6:15 am.
and i dont't care.
birthdays dont matter anymore to me.
a day is a day and a birth is a birth.
i've lost this adolescent joy.

polite boys really do me in.
deep.

right now my life is like choosing between
the good and the bad.

the seasons are shifting.
relationships are shifting.
my universe is shifting.

sex.

we're all fucked.

okay
honestly, all of this is just draining me.
i cant keep up
nobody tells me the truth
& im not getting any anwsers here.
im not asking for that much
i feel so misguided
perplexed
i just want to keep up
but its so unpredictable
i feel like everyone is mad with me.

i started work.
and i enjoy it, so far.
my friends are dropping like stones

more.

When we are younger oh our hearts are so much bolder
Oh the pressure is not as great
We floated weightless through the tops of trees
But as we get older, oh, our vision becomes blurred
And then the fog it slips right in
Now you're wondering how
Oh yeah, you're wondering how you ended up here.
-tilly&thewall.

think about that one kids.

i often contemplate what the point is.

i am this close to giving up on lj ( Read more... )