I wanted to be with you alone ( Read more... )

ok. so i tend to shuffle cards
while i talk to people on aim.
Thats what i do to keep busy.
I was talking to stephanie and shuffeling them
and when i flipped the top card
it was the queen of hearts.

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i have a re-occuring dream ( Read more... )

i like a girl.
and it sucks.
cause i dont think she likes me.
and even if she did,
i leave for school in a month.
fuckkk.

other than that.
life is good.

I wish there was something I could do. Something to make her happy. Something to make her smile. Something to make her forget her problems. Something to let her know how beautifull life truly can be.

my mom just called me.
she was kinda crying
but she wouldnt tell me what was wrong.
why is it that other people
open up to me with their problems
but my mom tries to protect me from hers
i want to be there for her
help her out
but sometimes i think
she is afraid to let me

i doubnt anyone will read this
but i havent seen my dad in over a year
and i kind of miss him.
it just sucks to think
that maybe he doesnt care.
it just sucks to think that
maybe no one really cares.

tell me something.
ANYTHING.
i dont care what it is.
if you want to make it anonymous
then do it.
just tell me something ok!
=]

yesterday was great ( Read more... )

anyone want to give me a job?
cause i really need one

paying for college blows