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holy crap. no one really reads these but meh you know. i like jotting down my feelings anyways. i just want to say first off. i love my firends and this is no diss to you. and secondly this is not a cray for attention.
so lately im back to my "funk-like" self. Eveything was going good for a while. but i have discovered something that is bugging me and will always bug me. I don't have a "clique" of gal friends. or of friends really. all my friends are spread all over the place. i really miss the feeling of having the "sercurity" of clique of people you are always with. Don't get me wrong i love my gal pals to death. but sometimes i wish we were one big group, you know?
i know my friends love me and blah blah. but i can't help but get the feeling that noone cares taht much. that no one really noticed that i was gone in texas and now back today. i have a certain friend, one the closest guy friends i have ever had and i talk with him hours. i aboustley adore him. he seemed to have found a clique kind of. and its like i envy it. in my mind of course. i envy anyone how has a group of people that really close to and can always countt on hanging out with and all that jazz. i used to have that 7th grade. but i guess there are plus sides to being in a certain group of people. i love the diversity of my friends and how they are all their own people. i do miss having a clique type thing. i feel kind of dis connected, you know?
i kind of just wanna have a big girl sleepover with all my gal pals so they can all unite. haha.
well warped is sunday. and i don't have my ticket.
whoopsy poopsy. i better get that,huh?
unless i talk to adam soon i might be going to chicago with him and his parents! i felt so honored he picked me to go with him :)
I THINK I SHOULD HAVE A DANCE PARTY AND JUST INVITE FUCKING EVERYONE. EVEN THOUGH THERE HAS BEEN LIKE 8 OF THEM.
I
WANNA
DANCE.