so im in the urge to update for some reason.

this week has been and will be very productive for me. friday, i stayed at home and relaxed by myself. i had a nice night. i layed by my little electic heater; drank hot chocolate; watched love movies; and fell asleep under my nice warm cover ( Read more... )

ok; so i got an email from patty, my boyfriends mom. and i really agree with it and i really like it. actually... it helped me out alot. here it goes ( Read more... )

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i hate that i miss ryan so much, but i love it too. it just hurts more and more everytime i see him because we get so close and then i have to up and leave him, or he has to up and leave me. we have become really close and he is honestly one of the only people i feel like its ok to be myself around and really let them know how i feel. its like i ( Read more... )

i dont think anyone understands usually, i want to get up to go to school, i want to go out, i want to try and make myself look pretty, i want to talk everyone's ear off but lately, i haven't really felt like doing anything. i feel like i have no way to express myself without being contradicted about the way i'm feeling. it's like i can't escape ( Read more... )

i know, amazing. im actually updating even though everyone reads this and doesn't comment! ♥ pshh. whatever ( Read more... )

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ok; so i just though i should let you all know

my boyfriend is coming up on saturday =]
and i am so freaking excited.

there will be pictures from this weekend.

WHAT WHAT! this weekend was amazingi thought this weekend was going to be a lame weekend because i wasn't allowed to do anything because of psat's saturday morning (which by the way were mondo hard and i could concentrate and i did really bad. oh well, thats why they call them PRACTICE.) after PSAT's saturday morning RYAN came over. oh my gosh, it ( Read more... )

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