so i took care of our little problem. and i say i and not we because we did nothing. i have to sit through all this bullshit because of him. "i'm always here for you, i still care about you, why can't oyu believe me?" BECAUSE YOU ARE A FUCKING LIAR, MORON. god damn mommy's boys.

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empty. like, completely drained of emotion or physical feeling. i should get some peircings before the numbness subsides.

what a fucking ass.

so i told brad about "d-day" today. he got all freaked out and now he's acting like how dare i do this to him. i am so pissed off.

so **** is apparently telling people he hates me and shit but then he tries to talk to me in the hall. why the fuck should i talk to him if he can't even tell me to my face that he hates me? asshole....

if anybody wants to do something today let me know

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got drunk enough to forget about him for a while. twas grand.

D-Day Results: unclear...

why the fuck do i keep letting him do this to me?? we hung out every day last week except friday, we went shopping holding hands, kissed, told eachother we love eachother, you know, basic COUPLE things. and he asks me out on thursday. i say not yet, because i want to make sure i can trust him to not hurt me again when he "gets what he wants". i don ( Read more... )

so...brad told me he loves me and misses me...but why the hell should i believe him when he won't even talk to me when his precious little dara is around? when we are alone he tells me all about how she is leading him on again and he doesn't want any of that anymore, yet when she's around he's drooling all over her, not even aknowledging my ( Read more... )

sooo...brad came over a couple times this week...let him use me again..i'm really pathetic...then he told me that i "talk to him way too much" and i "don't always have to be with him all the time" this coming from the man who lets a girl stand with her boobs literally 3 inches from his face. right. so we'll just find out how little i really can ( Read more... )

i should have known he was using me..why do i keep letting him do this to me...?

my head is fucking killing me ( Read more... )