sooo....

[___unloving_]

I was really really hoping I would get to go home today, but I dont. Apparently I'm not 'safe engough'. they think I cant function on my own at home yet...only they wont let me function on my own here, so how the hell do they know!!!??? UGGHGHGH:ASLkFasdfalskdfhasdf

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[notsoloud130]

chel, i dont know if me saying any of this is going to matter cuz i dont know how you feel abuot me but watever im going to anyways. im sorry i cant come visit you, if i wasnt on friggin house arrest i would of been there in a second. i didnt even know about the accident until that thursday when i read it in the paper cuz i cant get calls from anyone. the second i read it i started crying hysterically because all i could think of was what if it was worse, what if i had never gotten the chance to make things right and let you know how much you mean to me. it killed me not being able to be there for you. that instant i realized i couldnt let this go on any longer, i love you too much, i dont want to lose you. maybe this is a little too late, but im so sorry for letting the dumbest shit get between us. i can understand if you resent me or dont want anything to do with me, but i just want to make it right. i shouldnt of handled it the way i did, it was stupid and immature. im sorry chel, i miss you sooo bad and i hope you get better soon

[___unloving_]

once school starts, we'll be able to see each other and work things out in person.

I really really do miss you, and reading this brought tears to my eyes...

but I'm jsut so afraid that things will forever be different between us after all this. like it just wont be the same. but I'm more than willing to give friendship another try.

<3

[notsoloud130]

chel baby im gonna try my hardest to make things right. ya it will be difficult, but i also think this might make us stronger because we both realize how much we care for one another and how much it kills not to have each other in our lives. i need you chel, even if it isnt the same id rather have it be different than not have you at all. i want to prove to you how much your worth to me, and that i never want to let you go again. we just have to work on ourselves and our relationship. i miss you love so much.

[___unloving_]

<3 I cant wait to come home...I'm gonna break you out of your house!

we'll put a lawn mower engine in my wheelchair and speed away. lol.

[eternal_summer7]

dearest chelsey,
i have only recently found out about this horrible ordeal that you have been through, and i just want you to know how happy i am that you're going to be okay. i hate that we haven't seen each other in months...what on earth happened?! as soon as you come home and are well we're having the biggest nashoba party ever where we can all reconnect and be merry. i miss you so much, get better asap!
lovelovelove allie

[crazycara13]

Cheesy, I really really want you to come home to!! After i left you i kept thinking how lonely and horrible it must be to be stayin in that ridiculous hospital! i HATE hospitals!!! I can't wait til you better... the day you get your cast off and such.... we should have a party to celebrate or something like that!!! I know that's prolly a long ways away but its fun to think about... ttyl!! ps-- hows the book? Did you start reading it? sorry but i am obsessed with them so i was just curious!!! lol! love you!

[crystalmoon17]

=( By the time you get out, and stay at this house I'll probably be gone off to college again already. I leave next week (on Thursday or Friday)

[___unloving_]

I better fucking be out of here by then.

fuck this place.

[zeemadrussian]

I found out because it was in the front page of the Westford paper the Thursday after it happened.

I'm so glad you're okay.

Sorry I didn't post earlier.

I miss you.

Try to look on the positive side of things...you're okay, and that's the only thing that counts.