Healing is a slow and painful process

[sexytarawitch]

My dreams were filled with nightmares, I didn’t have one moment peace since I shut my eyes. I spent half the night crying into my pillow and trying to keep silent. I didn’t want to disturb Lindsey in any way, just me being here did that enough as it was

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[theurbancowboy]

"Mind being cooked for by a beautiful woman? No, I don't mind," I gave her a smile. I'd slept a lot longer than I'd meant to but that was because the night I'd spent thinking and having to resist comforting her cries

[sexytarawitch]

I flipped one of the pancakes over and blushed deeply, hiding behind my hair at his compliment, or was it his smile? Didn't matter, everything just was. I think I was getting tired of trying to define it because there was no definition for this, this was something totally new. Period, and it's a learning experience for us both.

Hopefully a slow and non-painful one. We've both had enough of that to last a lifetime.

"So, what do you want to do today?"I put some juice on the table and pulled his seat out for him before turning back to the pan. "Ummm, anything." I admitted. "I'm up for anything," I turned and glanced at him. "I trust you." I said softly, being totally honest

[theurbancowboy]

"Ummm, anything. I'm up for anything, I trust you."

I smiled, happy at her words, I knew she meant them, if she didn't she was a great liar and that didn't seem like the most likely occurance, her being a liar that is.

"How about we go shopping, get you anything you need and I need to get some guitar strings and a few new piks?"

The pancakes smelled delecious and my mouth was already watering and it wasn't just from the food, which was almost enough to be embarrassed over but again this was me and I rarely allowed myself to get embarrassed.

"Do you want chocolate chip or plane?"

I smiled again, "Chocolate chip."

She put a plate in front of me and made sure she tended to the dirty dishes before sitting down, though she seemed like she was waiting for something. Her body was tense as she sat and I wanted to scream, did they keep her from just sitting down to eat?

"Does that sound good? Shopping I mean?"

[sexytarawitch]

"How about we go shopping, get you anything you need and I need to get some guitar strings and a few new piks?"

I smiled and nodded, pulling the napkin into my lap. "Shopping sounds good." Especially because I have my own money. "I don't um really care where we go. I would like to get to know the place." I smiled at him and started to relax, handing him the chocolate chip pancakes and taking two plain for myself.

"Did you um sl-sleep ok?" I gave him a nervous look, feeling guilty still about taking his bed from him. But oddly it was a strange comfort to be there and to smell his aftershave on his sheets.

I tentatively took one of the chocolate chip pancakes, casting him a nervous look and feeling even more guilt in my stomach when he looked upset. "S-sorry...habits are h-hard to break..." I murmured looking down at my lap.

[theurbancowboy]

I looked at her, she was smiling. I liked to see that beautiful smile on her face.

"I love it here, sometimes Mike lets me come in and play, he's got the best ear, if my chords are off he makes this huge show of inspecting my strings and if he finds something wrong with them he'll replace them for free."

I looked back at the strings and pointed, "That is my favorite, it's thick and when you just strum it so lightly the sounds resonates so much it's practically tangiable."

I picked up a string with my other hand and held it.

"I need to get some pic's too."

[sexytarawitch]

I couldn't help but grin as he went on about his guitar. He loved it and it showed, I couldn't help but feel a bit guilty. Here he was, showing me his passion and everything and I can't even show him mine. I don't know if I can or not or if I'm just afraid to, I dont' want him to run away

[theurbancowboy]

I gave her a nod, "Less time I spend in here the less money I spend, it's probably a good thing to leave quickly though Mike may not agree

[sexytarawitch]

He lead me to another store and I willingly followed, feeling and smelling something so familuar that it almost felt like home. I nervously licked my lips and eyed him carefully as he lead me into a store with 'Muse' written on the door.

I blinked and looked up at him when he said his friend was a witch and if I wasn't holding onto his hand I don't know if I would have gone skipping through the store or passed out from relief. "A w-witch?" I licked my lips and eyed him slowly. "That's...That's ok with you?" I couldn't help but sound a bit hopeful when I spoke. I held my hand out and started to idily run my fingers over the velvet clothed table before running over a small statue in the center.

Licking my lips I held his hand still and pulled him over to some of the charms and ran my fingers over them, looking behind me to look at him. "None of this bothers you?" I asked again biting my lip. Could I be this lucky? Please let me be this lucky.