Okay, so I tried up with my xanga again.. and it just didn't feel right.
Weird? Maybe.
Things have been okay lately.. I kind of wish they were better.
My mom doesn't really do anything lately except yelling at me for doing, welp.. absolutey nothing.
How nifty.
She's got the Grinch and Scrooge spirit this year.
I've finally finished my gift shopping and ( Read more... )

The things I have to be most thankful for in this world ( Read more... )

So, lately things have been going great.
School's not so bad and I finally got my pageant dress that I've been delaying on.
I adore it xcore.
It just happened to be the one my mom and I had picked out way in the beginning but we were just so picky that we wanted to find some other dress.
My mom also felt the need to spend about 80 more dollars on my ( Read more... )

I'm sorry Gran-Gran.
My mom found my xanga and wasn't too happy with it.
So I need something to vent to.
Therefore, I'm left with Livejournal.
Can I get a what what?!
And I like the fact that anyone and everyone can comment on this.

It's been awhile, and I felt like starting up with this jigga again.

Now that I've tried getting you back in my life.
I'm going to stop.
Let you live your life, and proceed on with mine.
I can't wait around for you forever.
People have lost their first loves so many times.
If I just keep using that ol' saying of ;;
"LEARN FROM IT & MOVE ON"
I swear, I'll make it.
You live your life, I live mine.
Life will be beautiful.

"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you ( Read more... )

nothing's going to work out.
i've never hated myself so much.
bye.

I want things back.
I want everything back.
The laughs, the tears, the smile that I used to have.
I miss everything that I once had.
I don't care how hurt I've gotten over the past few days.
I miss you.
I miss you terribly, actually.
I loved you.
I do love you, still.
I gave everything to you, and it's still with you.
But, nothing can be the same.
You're ( Read more... )

I feel nothing.
I want nothing.
Why is nothing the same.
Why can't things be perfect again.
I'm stuck in some rutt and there's no way of getting out.
I'm not looking too hard.
I can't wait until school starts.
Chris, who's always been there for me, will be there for me again.
I can laugh again.
I guess, I'm just used to seeing someone every single day
and to ( Read more... )