i want to destroy. i want to elimate the one who brings me down each day. i've created this resentment towards the one who created me. if you do not love us, then why must you hurt us relentlessly? i can't eat, i can't go out, i can't live, because i hate, fear, loathe, and miss him. i've never been "good enough" for him, so now, i'm not good ( Read more... )

i think i had a dream about the snow.
that i was "having fun" with my brothers car again.
i'm so lonely, but i'm really starting to hate everyone from michigan.
fuck all you hoes. except an elite few who actually still care.

im very angry today.

i think i'm dying

i've never felt so queer in my life

fuck this medication and fuck my doctor for giving me the strongest dose to begin with.

i don't know if i can hold on any longer ( Read more... )

i miss this now, more than ever.


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i need a drink.

20 drinks.

never buy anything from teavana.
they are no-good-lying-son-of-a-bitches.
thanks for firing me.

i am so bored with life.
something exciting needs to happen,
or i'll start drinking heavily,
for the sake of fun times...

the martin family is going down.

thank goodness i'm changing my name.

i'm going to suprise you all when i come back.
i am going to look completly different.

=]

i think i have reverse peter pan syndrome ( Read more... )