Just for the record. I don't want to give anyone the impression I'm trashing him. Anyone who knows me, should know full well how much I care about him. About what we had. The fun times, and then not so fun. Those are all things that make a relationship, a relationship. He read everything on here this afternoon, and maybe there have been things I ( Read more... )

It's freezing in my house. It's been raining the past 4 days straight. And dad's got the airconditioning turned on. It's sooooo cold. I've honestly got six blankets on my bed right now. Least I'm warm at night hey? Speaking of my bed, I need to fix it. It's one of those crazy Ikea beds. So it had wooden slats in it. and some of them have come off, ( Read more... )

So I have this sketch book on my desk at all times. It started a few years ago. I had a notebook, that you'd usually use for school. Instead, I write random things in it. Glue random picures, lyrics, cutouts in it.

Onto the point of me blathering on like an idiot... Today Mark played me a song while we were hanging out.
IMOGEN HEAP - HIDE AND ( Read more... )

I'm down right freezing cold.
my boyfriend and I are both terrified of life.
my hair looks hideous.
I'm too lazy to pull out my flat iron and deal with it.
Alexisonfire is good this morning.
I went to bed early last night.
Had an interesting conversation with an ex.
scary. very scary.
funny. very funny.
mindless self indulgence makes me giggle.

I totally met STACEY last week. shes such a sweet girl. i heart her. I got my tattoo. its fucking awesomer than i ever thought. I can't find batteries for my camera. So no pics. not yet anyway. I got a wicked tan.
and I finally get to sleep in my own bed.

I'm not sure what's up with him and I. We had a HUGE fight while I was gone. But we seem to ( Read more... )

Why do I always do this to myself? I fail at everything I swear to god. I cant wait to leave on sunday. Get away from the bullshit surrounding me. This life licks balls.

save me?

I no longer know what to do. I think i'm slowly giving up. I find something to believe in and then it just falls apart. It sucks ass.

I leave in 4 days for california. I'm beyond excited. I'm going to meet STACEY!!!!!!!!!! and get a tattoo if all goes as planned. It will be nice to go on the trip with mom. Hopefully we can get along and not fight ( Read more... )

...... And if you think I was upset earlier, think again. I totalled my car tonight. when I got t-boned ( Read more... )

when everythings good you people comment like crazy. and then when im sad. you dont. sheesh. you friends are funny. [sorry guys I'm cranky]

Well he bought me a my little pony doll on Saturday, After friday he decided I needed a toy. Im starting a collection of ponies. It might be kinda fun ( Read more... )

We're on a break. Apparently he likes me so much hes scared. He has no idea what to do. Hes afraid that he's making the wrong choice. Its weird. I haven't seen him in 3 days. I miss him. It's stupid ( Read more... )