Jera...
MSNiotic frenzy.
Anxiety Is Freedom says: GOT YOU!
Han Solo says: Meh. O___o
Anxiety Is Freedom says: XD
Han Solo says: May I ask you to take your shoes off before entering da chat room?
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Sure thing. Hold Bob while i'm untying my shoelaces
Han Solo says: Who's Bob??
Anxiety Is Freedom says: My domesticated hedgehog <3
Han Solo says: Phew.. that sounded like something perverted to me... >.>;;;;
Anxiety Is Freedom says: It don't sting no worries. Here you are *tosses Bob*
Han Solo says: OMG WAIT I'M NOT READY!!! *catches Bob with one hand*
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Lol XDDD
Han Solo says: O______O
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Alright? XD
Han Solo says: Yes.. I'm sure you said it did not sting, though. >_<#
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Awwww >__<
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Why that nickname?
Han Solo says: Yeah.. it's AWWW all the way. *takes needles out off her skin*
Han Solo says: My name? Yeah well. I'm thinkin about having a sex change.
Anxiety Is Freedom says: It was about time!
Han Solo says: xD
Han Solo says: You not being serious?!
Anxiety Is Freedom says: You're making me want to see the trilogy <3
Han Solo says: I don't understand you guys. They say women are complicated, but you're a lot worse..
Anxiety Is Freedom says: We aren't that complicated. We've got 1/2 working braincell and everything else spins around it. So you can't fail at guessing what i'm thinking
Han Solo says: Your hedgehog? xD
Anxiety Is Freedom says: That's right 8D
Han Solo says: How shallow of you to admit so. è.é
Anxiety Is Freedom says: I know. But it makes me sound cool at the same time :3
Han Solo says: I'm impressed. xD
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Cay...will you just give it a rest and avoid generalizing like you usually do? X.X
Anxiety Is Freedom says: You can't blame the whole race if one individual is pissing you off
Han Solo says: I'm not pissed off!
Anxiety Is Freedom says: You're not? O.o
Han Solo says: No! But I'm.. very confused. @___@
Han Solo says: Each time I'm kidding people misunderstand my tone, so they get upset because they mistake it for negative sarcasm. Those rare times I'm being serious they just don't get it & they either drop the conversation or tease me believing it's nothing important.
Han Solo says: I wish I were dumb. =_=
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Awwww
Han Solo says: Seriously... that way I would not say anything wrong & hurt nobody.
Anxiety Is Freedom says: How would you express feelings?
Han Solo says: Let me see...
Han Solo says: I can wag my tail if I like you & bite you if I don't... x3
Anxiety Is Freedom says: I've always thought you only bite those you love
Han Solo says: Yes...
Anxiety Is Freedom says: It's the best thing about women. They say something but they mean the very opposite
Anxiety Is Freedom says: You're just like that
Han Solo says: Yes...
Anxiety Is Freedom says: And concepts?
Han Solo says: What?
Han Solo says: Ah yeah..
Han Solo says: ...I can always keep a pencil & paper ready for use.
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Making little drawings?
Han Solo says: Yup.
Han Solo says: I'd make lots of naughty drawings too. x3
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Lmao XD
Han Solo says: Those won't harm, at least...
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I am off-sick again. Almost sure the twins gave me flu.
Yesterday was a day to bury & forget.
It gets worse, & I don't mean my health. I don't understand most of it, I don't know why I'm so moody & doubtful.
Don't know why I'm so scared.
Don't know why I'm so wrong.
And we're currently coming across the Equinox... all that happens during these turning points in the Year remain impressed in my mind & carved in my heart.
This is another reason for me looking crestfallen during the Sabbats.
I get flashbacks, I swear I can almost smell the same smells I (pardon my repetitiveness) smelled the previous years.
They are both lovely & distressing memories.
And I see the future, though I'd rather not...
What's there in your hands now which you so take for granted, might vanish without a sound by the end of the following Cycle.
Some things are bound to change. They say changing is essential & it's always for the best.
But I doubt it I would like to apply the rule to just about everything.
Sometimes you might realize you've done nothing for three years, you've achieved nothing, you've gone nowhere.
Every day changes into the next & they all feel the same...
Same shit, different day...
So you pray for one of these turning points to bring you in something that's totally different, a quick change, a spark to inspire you to take BIG decisions & set off to a new fresh start.
I hate to look at my past & see how badly I miss it, as if it was any better than my present.
Because at that time I wasn't thinking so. At that time I was looking further back & saying it was better.
And I hate to worry about my future too, because the game is lost from the start.
I know it's going to do what it wants.. it's just beyond my will. I can work so hard for my present but I'll never be sure of anything.
Of that which comes in unexpectedly. I'm actually scared of that.
But you can't live in fear every day because of that, can you...
Anyways.
Yesterday night I was still here, waiting. It was midnight, it felt so horrible not even my friends managed to cheer me up.
I had not eaten anything in the previous 12 hours & I kept feeling sick, but there was nothing to reject.
There was nothing to eat at my old place except for an apple, which I baked.
It was 1:30am.
I locked myself inside the bathroom ten minutes later.
When it was over, I sat on the floor & fell asleep with my head on the edge of the bathtub. Must of slept one hour or less.
I had no intention whatsoever to go back to my new place, I couldn't even crawl down the stairs.
My mum brought me some crackers for breakfast, I was a little disappointed.
When you know that ANYTHING you eat will eventually give you trouble.. whether it's crackers or tiramisu... you no longer care.
Diets are not working, so you eat what you feel like eating.
And I didn't want crackers, I was dying for custard creams! >_<
But yeah. At least I didn't get a stomach ache until half past eleven.
I should wrap myself in a blanket, drink a lot of water & do nothing. But it's just so boring...
I'm not staying at my new place because my cousin is coming to see my grandmother, I don't want to meet him.
He's so pessimistic he always manages to ruin my days. -_-
And I can't stand seeing my granma looking crushed because she worries too much about me feeling sick.
My mum is working overtime & is never at home...
I prefer to be on my own when I'm sick.
Yes, pretty much like a dog that goes & die far from their owner's sight.
Anxiety Is Freedom says: GOT YOU!
Han Solo says: Meh. O___o
Anxiety Is Freedom says: XD
Han Solo says: May I ask you to take your shoes off before entering da chat room?
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Sure thing. Hold Bob while i'm untying my shoelaces
Han Solo says: Who's Bob??
Anxiety Is Freedom says: My domesticated hedgehog <3
Han Solo says: Phew.. that sounded like something perverted to me... >.>;;;;
Anxiety Is Freedom says: It don't sting no worries. Here you are *tosses Bob*
Han Solo says: OMG WAIT I'M NOT READY!!! *catches Bob with one hand*
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Lol XDDD
Han Solo says: O______O
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Alright? XD
Han Solo says: Yes.. I'm sure you said it did not sting, though. >_<#
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Awwww >__<
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Why that nickname?
Han Solo says: Yeah.. it's AWWW all the way. *takes needles out off her skin*
Han Solo says: My name? Yeah well. I'm thinkin about having a sex change.
Anxiety Is Freedom says: It was about time!
Han Solo says: xD
Han Solo says: You not being serious?!
Anxiety Is Freedom says: You're making me want to see the trilogy <3
Han Solo says: I don't understand you guys. They say women are complicated, but you're a lot worse..
Anxiety Is Freedom says: We aren't that complicated. We've got 1/2 working braincell and everything else spins around it. So you can't fail at guessing what i'm thinking
Han Solo says: Your hedgehog? xD
Anxiety Is Freedom says: That's right 8D
Han Solo says: How shallow of you to admit so. è.é
Anxiety Is Freedom says: I know. But it makes me sound cool at the same time :3
Han Solo says: I'm impressed. xD
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Cay...will you just give it a rest and avoid generalizing like you usually do? X.X
Anxiety Is Freedom says: You can't blame the whole race if one individual is pissing you off
Han Solo says: I'm not pissed off!
Anxiety Is Freedom says: You're not? O.o
Han Solo says: No! But I'm.. very confused. @___@
Han Solo says: Each time I'm kidding people misunderstand my tone, so they get upset because they mistake it for negative sarcasm. Those rare times I'm being serious they just don't get it & they either drop the conversation or tease me believing it's nothing important.
Han Solo says: I wish I were dumb. =_=
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Awwww
Han Solo says: Seriously... that way I would not say anything wrong & hurt nobody.
Anxiety Is Freedom says: How would you express feelings?
Han Solo says: Let me see...
Han Solo says: I can wag my tail if I like you & bite you if I don't... x3
Anxiety Is Freedom says: I've always thought you only bite those you love
Han Solo says: Yes...
Anxiety Is Freedom says: It's the best thing about women. They say something but they mean the very opposite
Anxiety Is Freedom says: You're just like that
Han Solo says: Yes...
Anxiety Is Freedom says: And concepts?
Han Solo says: What?
Han Solo says: Ah yeah..
Han Solo says: ...I can always keep a pencil & paper ready for use.
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Making little drawings?
Han Solo says: Yup.
Han Solo says: I'd make lots of naughty drawings too. x3
Anxiety Is Freedom says: Lmao XD
Han Solo says: Those won't harm, at least...
.
.
.
I am off-sick again. Almost sure the twins gave me flu.
Yesterday was a day to bury & forget.
It gets worse, & I don't mean my health. I don't understand most of it, I don't know why I'm so moody & doubtful.
Don't know why I'm so scared.
Don't know why I'm so wrong.
And we're currently coming across the Equinox... all that happens during these turning points in the Year remain impressed in my mind & carved in my heart.
This is another reason for me looking crestfallen during the Sabbats.
I get flashbacks, I swear I can almost smell the same smells I (pardon my repetitiveness) smelled the previous years.
They are both lovely & distressing memories.
And I see the future, though I'd rather not...
What's there in your hands now which you so take for granted, might vanish without a sound by the end of the following Cycle.
Some things are bound to change. They say changing is essential & it's always for the best.
But I doubt it I would like to apply the rule to just about everything.
Sometimes you might realize you've done nothing for three years, you've achieved nothing, you've gone nowhere.
Every day changes into the next & they all feel the same...
Same shit, different day...
So you pray for one of these turning points to bring you in something that's totally different, a quick change, a spark to inspire you to take BIG decisions & set off to a new fresh start.
I hate to look at my past & see how badly I miss it, as if it was any better than my present.
Because at that time I wasn't thinking so. At that time I was looking further back & saying it was better.
And I hate to worry about my future too, because the game is lost from the start.
I know it's going to do what it wants.. it's just beyond my will. I can work so hard for my present but I'll never be sure of anything.
Of that which comes in unexpectedly. I'm actually scared of that.
But you can't live in fear every day because of that, can you...
Anyways.
Yesterday night I was still here, waiting. It was midnight, it felt so horrible not even my friends managed to cheer me up.
I had not eaten anything in the previous 12 hours & I kept feeling sick, but there was nothing to reject.
There was nothing to eat at my old place except for an apple, which I baked.
It was 1:30am.
I locked myself inside the bathroom ten minutes later.
When it was over, I sat on the floor & fell asleep with my head on the edge of the bathtub. Must of slept one hour or less.
I had no intention whatsoever to go back to my new place, I couldn't even crawl down the stairs.
My mum brought me some crackers for breakfast, I was a little disappointed.
When you know that ANYTHING you eat will eventually give you trouble.. whether it's crackers or tiramisu... you no longer care.
Diets are not working, so you eat what you feel like eating.
And I didn't want crackers, I was dying for custard creams! >_<
But yeah. At least I didn't get a stomach ache until half past eleven.
I should wrap myself in a blanket, drink a lot of water & do nothing. But it's just so boring...
I'm not staying at my new place because my cousin is coming to see my grandmother, I don't want to meet him.
He's so pessimistic he always manages to ruin my days. -_-
And I can't stand seeing my granma looking crushed because she worries too much about me feeling sick.
My mum is working overtime & is never at home...
I prefer to be on my own when I'm sick.
Yes, pretty much like a dog that goes & die far from their owner's sight.