This was suppose to be our night.

[__firecracker]

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[yoshimar]

*hugs* i don't think I can answer your question because only time will answer it...i know at least a bit how you feel, my parents have told me endless time I'll visit my friends and never kept their promises, now don't worry dear just keep hanging in there, k? one day you may be able to fly to whenever you want to but you can't let obstacles get in your way. Just keep believing ok? SOme day the clouds will break and so will the chains that are hodlding you down.

You know Mar I never told you this but I admire you ...you are a strong human being that will always try to be optimistic...it's ok to cry sometimes it is the only thing that we can do, k? *hugs*

[__firecracker]

Thanks, honey. That really means a lot to me that you think I'm admirable. :::smiles softly:::

It's the morning, so I'm still trying to recover. I'll feel later later in the day.

[_voiceless]

*hugs Mar* You know, I'm not too good at saying these kinds of things, but I can totally agree with everything you said. I have never seen the end of my road without it being in a car or with my mom or dad. If I want to go hang out at the mall late at night or something, I have to sneak and do it, spending the night with my friend whos sister sneaks us where we want to go, with my parents just assuming I was safe at her house.

I can totally feel for you, I really do. Reading that entry was like reading my freakin LIFE, it was that similar. Maybe one day we can fly away, but just hang in there. Every time you keep holding on another day, it's another day closer to your freedom. :)

[__firecracker]

Aww, thank you. Yes. Another day goes by, right? Mm. I think many of us could relate. It's hard to live life sometimes, but we still can get by, right?

Part 1

[ex_chicha141]

What you need right now is someone to be there for you and give you a big hug and say 'it's okay' and 'I know how you feel'. Unfortunately I'm not of any of those things that I just described, but I am a friend, and a sister. I think that gives me a little importance, right there.

Like I've kind of implied, I'm just not an emotional person. (Or maybe I am and I just supress it/don't...express it. Art. Art is an outlet mi amiga....) Thus, I will do all I can in the following comment to make you feel better and help you see this in a different way without adding to your....upset state of which you are in as of now. Picking the right tone for such a post is hard, but I'm going to TRY to be serious, and if I cheer you up along the way PEEK-A-BOO!, so be it! (My icon doesn't really help things, I'm sure

Re: Part 2

[ex_chicha141]

I know I'm going to sound crazy for saying this (I don't think I've told anybody this and quite honestly, for me to post it in 'public' like this is kind of strange, but it's for you, God knows I'd do just about anything fer' ye', Lady Mar) but I honestly think everything happens for a reason. Every little decision you make is part of a master plan. Call me Merril, I don't care. This stated, yes, I think you (and everyone else) is being 'tested'. It DOES suck you can't drive. It DOES suck there's not a fucking sidewalk to parade down. It DOES suck that Bill and Mom won't give us two freedoms to shake a stick at, but....that's life. You can look at it one of two ways. One, be pissed, resent it all, say fuck everything, and be done with it. OR, you can look at the brighter side. YES, I just went into an entire SHPEAL about me being the cynical bastardly one, but I'm trying to help here, (SO PAY ATTENTION!) So we're locked in. Hurray, right? Mar, you've got TWO more years of high school left. That's eighteen months of squandering in

[__firecracker]

xD Yeah...mm, I understand. xD Thanks, Sam. That did cheer me up. (WTFOMFG!!!11!1!SNAPE!)

...At least Austin didn't puke before you kissed him. xD

But you're right. And you did cheer me up. Thanks. :)

[ex_superstit361]

*hugs* It's frightening how similar my parents are to yours. I can also relate to a lot of what you've said. There was a time when it seemed that my parents were going to make it impossible for me to see Jaz, but I got through it. I can tell you love her very much, and your relationship is a strong one, and that will help you with this

[__firecracker]

Oh, thank you so much. Just a fair warning, I might take up that offer on your AIM. xD;; But thank you.

I understand the struggles that happened between you and Jaz, but I'm glad that you two have been together. That gives me hope.

[ex_superstit361]

That's fine by me! :P It shouldn't be hard to catch me since I'm on.. almost all the time. :P

Yeah, most of it was all from my parents. First they were like "It's too far!" then they (somehow) found out everything and being the homophobic asshats that they are, they had a really ugly fit about that. They still have some learning to do though, that they should just accept it and give up with trying to control me. Some parents just have a really hard time with learning and/or accepting this, but they'll have to sooner or later.

[__firecracker]

My parents don't know about Katie and me, but I'll imagine that someday...they'll be upset. I'm sorry about how your parents reacted. I think they're worried that they raised us wrong or that they won't have grandchild. Especially mothers.

Thanks, honey.

[cuddle_bunny]

Uggh. I can sympathize. Life is so full of these little tests... that's what I would consider them. Somehow I'm convinced that we need these crushing experiences to better ourselves and lead us in the right directions.

Be patient though. I assure you your time to be free will come. Mine didn't come until I was in college (I was 19 at the time). I hope that your time will come much sooner, but no matter how long the wait, hang in there.:)

[__firecracker]

I'm going to be 19 when I have to go to college. I can relate to that. xD;;

I'll be patient. Mm, and hang in there!