i can be happy for a while, until i start thinking again.

I stayed home today. I didn't sleep very well last night... i had some of the most horrible dreams i've ever had in my life. this bad feeling won't go away.

I neglect this journal. I've neglected a lot of journals in my life. I wonder what that says about me ( Read more... )

i'm sick. and lying in bed makes me even more sick. when i lie in bed i start thinking and then i get pissed off. i hate it. i haven't had the best day or night. and i feel like a giant idiot.

dear elliott smith,
i miss you. <3

today was eventful. a good almost-end of summer day. first i went to the school for a black masque meeting and we filmed our safety video. then i unexpectedly became a model for zach and emily. i really wanted to take pictures but i still had a pretty good time (sorry about the complaining). then zach, randi, and i went out. we visited meaghan at ( Read more... )

i went to lunch with my mom today and we talked and now i am feeling much better about everything. i can't get into details right now because i want to tell jake first. let's just say i've got some perspective on things. :)

life is so sad sometimes. i think of everything and i cry. everything in the world makes me think of my boyfriend and i don't know what i'm going to do when he's gone. but i am reminded every day that he is leaving. and he seems so sad sometimes and i hate it. and i hate that he is always working. and i hate that time moves so quickly ( Read more... )

i spent all day with my parents today. after church we ate and then went shopping for school clothes. my dad was really into it because he knows this is the last time we get to do this ( Read more... )

Today was registration for school. It was as fun as I expected.. which isn't very fun at all. First of all, the walk from the car to the school itself made me break into a sweat because it was so hot and humid today. Then I am told that I need to get my Hepetitis A and B shots, which I specifically remembering getting a few years ago. Then I have ( Read more... )