I'm so conflicted right now. I've been in the first stage of recovery for a year now and it's just.. frustrating. I feel like I'm never going to get out of this swing.. that goes back and forth between "sick" and "healthy" days. I'm kind of scared of moving forward... it's just much easier to be able to compensate for the days I do feel too big..
It's so frustrating.
And you're a model too, correct? It makes it even harder :\
i dont think your a failure. and i dont think you should think that about yourself. who cares how much time it takes if your directed at recovery, its not a race, life isn't a race. i hope it goes well for you.
I am glad you are back here writing! I always read your entries and I've been thinking about them more often recently because my eating has really dropped off since my birthday last month. I pretty much only eat when people take me out for meals... and other than that I just don't really. Don't really eat.
I've been getting really skinny. But I've also been tired and stuff because I've been partying a lot. And drinking a lot. And smoking a lot. And I don't know that they work together very well. I'm glad you're here for me to talk to sometimes even though we don't know each other
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:/ Its so hard to say anything without being a hypcrite, but i hope you do stick to recovery/food plan.
I hope your puppy gives you lots of love. ♥
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I'm so conflicted right now. I've been in the first stage of recovery for a year now and it's just.. frustrating. I feel like I'm never going to get out of this swing.. that goes back and forth between "sick" and "healthy" days. I'm kind of scared of moving forward... it's just much easier to be able to compensate for the days I do feel too big..
It's so frustrating.
And you're a model too, correct? It makes it even harder :\
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glad to read an entry from you
take care of that little pup
as well as yourself
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awww, thats such an adorable name for a puppy.
i dont think your a failure. and i dont think you should think that about yourself. who cares how much time it takes if your directed at recovery, its not a race, life isn't a race. i hope it goes well for you.
*hugs tightly*
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I've been getting really skinny. But I've also been tired and stuff because I've been partying a lot. And drinking a lot. And smoking a lot. And I don't know that they work together very well. I'm glad you're here for me to talk to sometimes even though we don't know each other
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