It may sound stupid but I'm very thankful for all of you. Reading your entries really helps me and makes me feel supported and not alone
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i feel exactly the same with LJ. it really helps me out.
i'm sorry your having a hard time with recovery. i hope that you can get over this hurdle. but to everyone else I'm finally beautiful. i know how hat feels for me. not that i've been through what you are going through (which is a good thing with your recovery, saying "going through" always comes out sounding like your "going through something BAD"), but i know how hard it is to deal with and how confusing it is. with these things, we have to be able to trust other people's judgements and not our own, while we should be HAPPY and not CARE what people think at the same time. its so hard to do. but trust the people who care about you and your health.
*hugs* Hang in with recovery, the longer you hang with it, the more normal it feels, i hope. *hugs*
and honestly, i dont want you to think im storking your ego, but you are absolutely gorgeous. When I found out you were a model, my first thought was, "of course she is" and it has nothing to do with your body. youre striking, one of the most gorgeous, intelligent people ive met.
You deserve for the world to be able to see you. hold on to health.
Oh man it's crazy how sometimes you read something written by someone else with an eating disorder, and it sounds so so so so similar to what's going on in your own head. That whole entry, particularly the bit where it says.. so I'm stuck in this gap right now... could have come straight from my fingertips. I know that sooner or later I'll plunge back into anorexia, and I actually really, really look forward to it. And then when I'm weak and horrible I'll look back to when I was healthy and think 'WHY can't I have that again?'. Blah. This whole thing sucks. But I just hope ya know that you're not alone. xx
Thanx for your comment :-) It's weird, I wrote this so long ago but reading it again now it's all still exactly the same. That's kind of sad in a way :-]
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i'm sorry your having a hard time with recovery. i hope that you can get over this hurdle.
but to everyone else I'm finally beautiful. i know how hat feels for me. not that i've been through what you are going through (which is a good thing with your recovery, saying "going through" always comes out sounding like your "going through something BAD"), but i know how hard it is to deal with and how confusing it is. with these things, we have to be able to trust other people's judgements and not our own, while we should be HAPPY and not CARE what people think at the same time. its so hard to do. but trust the people who care about you and your health.
*hugs tightly*
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and honestly, i dont want you to think im storking your ego, but you are absolutely gorgeous. When I found out you were a model, my first thought was, "of course she is" and it has nothing to do with your body. youre striking, one of the most gorgeous, intelligent people ive met.
You deserve for the world to be able to see you. hold on to health.
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It's weird, I wrote this so long ago but reading it again now it's all still exactly the same. That's kind of sad in a way :-]
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