I hope for your sake you don't wake up as broken as I am.
--; I just got off the Phone with Hannah. aka The backstabber.
let me tell you what's up with Hannah. When I first moved here, everyone told me to stay away from her, that she was a gothic freak and she would murder me if I did one thing she didn't like. She was in my reading class, so we became semi-friends. We only talked then. Well, this year, we were in teh same class, and still stayed away from each other. One day. she noticed I had M.A.D.E. hoodie on. We slowly became friends, hooked on the same kind of music and clothing and such. Well, in November, her mom was being evicted from teh local trailer park they lived at. We had become family, I was always at her house, Her family was my family, and we both liked it that way. She soon had to move to the city that's less that 2 miles from Green, where I live. Before she had moved, She and Caitlyn had become best friends, and Caitlyn soon turned against me, and not too long after, Hannah hated me too. So there I was, friendless, and Hannah moved, Caitlyn hated me, Daniel broke up with me.
Well, tonight, out of the blue, she calls me.
Me: Hey.
Hannah: Hi
::pause::
Hannah: are you still friends with Caitlyn, or does you still hate her?
Me: Psh. I don't hate her, she hates me. why?
Hannah: No reason.
::insert random things and giggles for about 30 minutes::
Hannah *talking to little sister*: SADIE SHUT THE FUCK UP!
Sadie: who's on the fucking phone?! Is It Aryn?
Hannah: No.
Sam *her little brother*: Yes it is! I thought you hated her!
Hannah: SHUT THE FUCK UP! I never said that! I just said we weren't talking.
Me: Correction, you do hate me, Caitlyn turned you against me. You weren't talking to me because of that! You don't have to lie.
Hannah: Aryn, that's not true.
::went back to normal convo until she got 'disconnected', she calls back.::
Hannah: Sorry.
Me: Whatever.
Hannah: What's your problem?
Me; YOU! YOu call me after two months of not even speaking to me, tell me how your life is so great, tell me You've been talking to Caitlyn and she's talking crap about me, and you don't give a flying fuck that I'm in fucking tears right now! If you were my friend you would actually know that my mom's having a baby, I'm becoming more and more suicidal and I HAVE NO FUCKING FRIENDS TO TALK TO, why?! Because you fucking left me to start over! You had friends here. But you actually saw me becoming happy, just like you did with Brittany and you stopped becoming her friend!
Hannah: It's not like that--
Me: No, You do realize, that when you left, Caitlyn hated me, I found out my mom was having a baby, Daniel broke up with me and my parents just FUCKING GOT DIVORCED! And I had no friends to turn to. You know how much that fucking hurts?!
Hannah: Aryn...I dind't mean to do that...I had no choice.
Me: IF YOU HAD NO FUCKING CHOICE THEN HWY THE FUCK DOES SAM STILL GO TO OUR FUCKING SCHOOL!? You could have stayed just like he did.
Hannah: Aryn..Calm down.
Me: I can't fucking calm down. You back stabbed me Hannah.
Hannah: Aryn, I called you tonight cuz Caitlyn wanted to get blackmail. that's why we gt disconnected, I knew you didn't have caller ID and she was on the other line...she hung up...
Me; Screw you Hannah. Just go away...don't say anything to me ever again.
::click::
--; I hate my fucking friends. Well, I can't hate them, since I have none! UGH! Hnnah and Caitlyn are the only ones I've told about what happened in Florida. They know so much about me, and with Hannah, I thought she'd actually stay my friend. --; I only have one friend for life, and I'm not there for them...I want to be there...I want.....I want my old life.....
But I can't have it.
let me tell you what's up with Hannah. When I first moved here, everyone told me to stay away from her, that she was a gothic freak and she would murder me if I did one thing she didn't like. She was in my reading class, so we became semi-friends. We only talked then. Well, this year, we were in teh same class, and still stayed away from each other. One day. she noticed I had M.A.D.E. hoodie on. We slowly became friends, hooked on the same kind of music and clothing and such. Well, in November, her mom was being evicted from teh local trailer park they lived at. We had become family, I was always at her house, Her family was my family, and we both liked it that way. She soon had to move to the city that's less that 2 miles from Green, where I live. Before she had moved, She and Caitlyn had become best friends, and Caitlyn soon turned against me, and not too long after, Hannah hated me too. So there I was, friendless, and Hannah moved, Caitlyn hated me, Daniel broke up with me.
Well, tonight, out of the blue, she calls me.
Me: Hey.
Hannah: Hi
::pause::
Hannah: are you still friends with Caitlyn, or does you still hate her?
Me: Psh. I don't hate her, she hates me. why?
Hannah: No reason.
::insert random things and giggles for about 30 minutes::
Hannah *talking to little sister*: SADIE SHUT THE FUCK UP!
Sadie: who's on the fucking phone?! Is It Aryn?
Hannah: No.
Sam *her little brother*: Yes it is! I thought you hated her!
Hannah: SHUT THE FUCK UP! I never said that! I just said we weren't talking.
Me: Correction, you do hate me, Caitlyn turned you against me. You weren't talking to me because of that! You don't have to lie.
Hannah: Aryn, that's not true.
::went back to normal convo until she got 'disconnected', she calls back.::
Hannah: Sorry.
Me: Whatever.
Hannah: What's your problem?
Me; YOU! YOu call me after two months of not even speaking to me, tell me how your life is so great, tell me You've been talking to Caitlyn and she's talking crap about me, and you don't give a flying fuck that I'm in fucking tears right now! If you were my friend you would actually know that my mom's having a baby, I'm becoming more and more suicidal and I HAVE NO FUCKING FRIENDS TO TALK TO, why?! Because you fucking left me to start over! You had friends here. But you actually saw me becoming happy, just like you did with Brittany and you stopped becoming her friend!
Hannah: It's not like that--
Me: No, You do realize, that when you left, Caitlyn hated me, I found out my mom was having a baby, Daniel broke up with me and my parents just FUCKING GOT DIVORCED! And I had no friends to turn to. You know how much that fucking hurts?!
Hannah: Aryn...I dind't mean to do that...I had no choice.
Me: IF YOU HAD NO FUCKING CHOICE THEN HWY THE FUCK DOES SAM STILL GO TO OUR FUCKING SCHOOL!? You could have stayed just like he did.
Hannah: Aryn..Calm down.
Me: I can't fucking calm down. You back stabbed me Hannah.
Hannah: Aryn, I called you tonight cuz Caitlyn wanted to get blackmail. that's why we gt disconnected, I knew you didn't have caller ID and she was on the other line...she hung up...
Me; Screw you Hannah. Just go away...don't say anything to me ever again.
::click::
--; I hate my fucking friends. Well, I can't hate them, since I have none! UGH! Hnnah and Caitlyn are the only ones I've told about what happened in Florida. They know so much about me, and with Hannah, I thought she'd actually stay my friend. --; I only have one friend for life, and I'm not there for them...I want to be there...I want.....I want my old life.....
But I can't have it.