I was looking for a muse yesterday, so I felt nothing better than to write random things on torn pieces of paper.. Like get good grades! Be cool! GI joes rock! Coke > Pepsi! just a bunch of dumb things like that, i was gonna put em on my wall but then I had this wonderful idea. I went to the store with my scraps of paper that I had so aimlessly ( Read more... )

Ive been feeling this weird feeling, almost can call it a moment of clarity, but its not like im understanding anything I didnt before. No epiphanies revealed.. i just dont feel like performing for anyone, i dont wanna tell anyone what they wanna hear anymore. Im tired of it all.. as a matter of fact im tired of doing this journal.

My mom freaked me out lastnight.. I came home from the skatepark to be greeted with a note on my computer about all these things shes planning on doing. My mom usually procrastinates everything to the last moment, things like doctor apoointments, dentist appointments, registering for school. Anyways.. she has all these things planned for me and its ( Read more... )

putting the baracades along the path in the way of the flying metal.. laughed a bunch at those damn things.. confused as i walked away.. blinking lights remind me muahahah.. woohoo.. or something. the guy in 7/11 liked the bracelet i made.. its just a shoelace burnt together with a capital D on it... oddly enough he said he liked it, i bet he ( Read more... )

i went to cali... ended up riding a bus to and from there.. both 13 hr bus rides.. ended up getting into an accident on one bus ride and saw an accident on the way home. The first bus crashed into a immigrant depot station, and delayed us 2 hrs, i neded up missing my 2nd bus and got stranded in san diego, but luckily im insanely clever and took a ( Read more... )

I wonder if... All those kids who are supposed "loners" are really loners because of others or themselves. I watched welcome to the dollhouse today and it made me notice something about people who are lonely and whatnot. They get so confused they get to a point they start feeling its everyone elses fault, they get bitter and give up basically. Then ( Read more... )

oi.

Yea there is a neat aspect to the joy you get from clarity, but nothing is more interesting or as motivating as confusion. Clarity is like fact and confusion is like fiction... ill stick with my fiction.. keep the confusion alive and ill keep you on your toes...

my brain is clogged or something.. i cant think thoroughly. And ive not been able to analyze corretly and observe well, im getting fucked in the head and i dont know why

Smarm, its shaved! My life... too much going on right now, and i dont feel like talking about it. All I know is some girl I barely know told me who I was, and ive never had someone pin point me out of nowhere. She scared the shit out of me.. she played her cards well, but i dont reveal strengths, only weaknesses.. ya know i played my cards better. ( Read more... )