My dads gone away now, and i kinda miss him...Is that weird since we are always fighting..I have no idea.
Last night was fun. Everyone was really good and i managed to get drumsticks, a plec and signatures :D How awesome.
Me and faye talked loads and danced and sung on the way there. It was rather funny :D 
My exam starts in 2 hours and im sitting ( Read more... )

Friday...was kinda weird.
Went to jcf obviously and i ran around the whole time chasing after mark which was rather fun when i actually managed to get his hat!
At prayer time Mary passed me pizza through the window which was rather cool too!
Ellie didnt come.
I let early well i left like 15 minutes before everyone and i headed down to sainsburys on my ( Read more... )

Sooooooo I have a music exam :) How fecking great...i bet im gunna fail the listening part and all the rest of the hard work ive put in will go down the drain just because i dont know how to do the time signature and all thiat shit! Oh well id only have to stay on 1 more year at halesowen college if i do fail most my exams.
I can't wait till college ( Read more... )

So you know i must be bored if im posting as lj entry after how long?
Things have happened but i cant be arsed to explain them so i'll just carry on about the current life im living, not the past.
I love less than jake, they make me happy :) 
Ive started hanging round with new people but im trying not to forget the old people who will always be in my ( Read more... )

biting keeps your words at bay
tending to the sores that stay
happiness is just a gash away
when i open a familiar scar
pain goes shooting like a star
comfort hasn't failed to follow so far...

and you might say it's self-indulgent
you might say its self-destructive
but, you see, it's more productive
than if i were to be healthy

& pens and penknives ( Read more... )

Is it still me that makes you sweat ( Read more... )

FUCK EVERYONE  IN FACT FUCK IT ALL, INFACT FUCK YOU ALL, ARGH JUST FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! dont care in life
gets you nowhere

I guess ill never be good enough,

I guess ill never surface

From this murky water,

That holds me down and chokes my lungs,

Its all a metaphor,

A slight twist of the tounge,

Its all a stupid thought,

that just wont go away.

Its too much to deal with,

I can feel it all slipping away,

Im fighting for survival,

But im losing the battle.

And why do i do ( Read more... )

If it makes you smile ( Read more... )

God i wish i could tear down the sky ( Read more... )