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[__inadream]

brian and i have been on the verge of breaking up for like three days now. we had a big blowup last week about me closing down when things happen and shutting him out, and we had a three hour conversation about things we need fixed and how to change them. he knows that things are rough with me and not stable with us, but he's not fighting for me.

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[aedrais]

Well, you know what happened with me.

I was never really able to get over him leaving me. I just... never trusted him the same way, or believe in him the same way.

I think you know what the best thing to do, is. I'm not going to give you advice one way or another, because I don't want you to do anything you haven't chosen for yourself.

Whatever happens, I hope you're all right. <3

[__inadream]

but... how did you get through breaking up with him? like, do you guys have no contact or are you still friends? and..stuff? i don't know, i've never had to break up with someone i loved before (since this is my first 'real' relationship) and your situation is kind of identical and you've been there for me through all this, so. even just hearing about how you went about it and how you got through it would help.

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[aedrais]

I'm not going to tell you where my ex and I are right now, because it's not a good place, and I hope for so much better for you

[aedrais]

Ugh. So, for some reason, I feel the need to tell you that I spoke with my ex for the first time since we broke up two nights ago. We spoke on the phone for four hours, and while it was a friendly enough conversation (at parts), he made it so entirely clear that he doesn't feel anything towards me anymore... hell, he barely has friendly feelings. And all I have to say is, getting over someone is so, so hard. I thought I was doing well, and then we talked, and I just... god, I miss him. So much. And hearing him say that he thinks our relationship wasn't that great (at least for the last year), it broke my heart all over again. Even when we weren't making each other happy, I loved him with everything in me. This continues to be the hardest thing I've ever done

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:(:(:( ♥

[aboutbefore]

he was. . . my first time.

oh really?

[aboutbefore]

I was hoping someone would point that out. Of course, I'm sure to Gabbi it doesn't count if you do it first with a girl. It was all pretending anyway, wasn't it?

[aedrais]

Hey, some people count things differently. Some people consider oral sex part of losing your virginity, others don't. Some people would consider strict PIV sex as losing your virginity, which means that lesbians/gays never do. Before making any snap judgments, lets consider that people have hugely varying views on sexuality. He was her first male sex partner. Take a pill.

[aboutbefore]

He wasn't by any means her first sexual experience. Take a pill yourself, or just mind your own business, your call.